You Are, You Aren't Even Close?

I'm all hopped up on on felden crisis of reading one of his books right now. He describes us as parasitic tension, which is kind of what you're describing now. In a way, it's these helled compensatory patterns that we just, we think it's who we are,. cause we don't know any different. I've had so many experiences and myself, where it's like, man o man i have been pretty much driving this machine complete ass backwards for 20 years.