I was under the impression I had already dealt with the mental and emotional repercussions of war and was good to go but I was very wrong in 2020 without warning a multitude of dormant deep seated issues suddenly resurfaced and put me down hard humbling me. It's now been more than a year that I've been back to functioning functioning at 100% going forward I plan to post occasionally and hopefully share some of the principles which have helped me through this process so operator syndrome this is like bad sleep this is hormone dysfunction this is chronic pain headaches substance abuse in your case freakin Oreo abuse depression suicide family dysfunction  and you were definitely feeling this yeah absolutely.