If you're not working for two years and your bank count as shrinking month to month, it's like an absolutely due or die situation. So i don't want to say this, but all your fears of survival and the security that money brings are hard enough to tackle when you've got it. In order for me to find a career that is fulfilling and for my long term financial security, i need to take a break for six months to a year. You could do a lot of intense personal work, and you could come out the other side a very transformed person. I think it's going to be a bumpy road, and you may not come out theother side in the way