Speaker 2
There's a whole other podcast series on the extraordinary effect this had on your Walk with Jesus and
Speaker 7
spiritual connection. And we don't
Speaker 2
have time to go into that because we want to get to the rest of the story. But God was at work through all of this stuff that I think it was demonic, what was happening to you. But God was at work.
Speaker 1
MS. Oh, 100%. And, and, and you know, in hindsight, you know, I think Jesus is so kind in that he redeems the broken parts of our stories. And I think I never would have gone on that inner journey and done all the deep work around doing the practices and, and learning what God is like. MS.
Speaker 2
You would not have had a felt need. No,
Speaker 7
because I was so pleasant.
Speaker 1
Yeah, I was happy and like in, and I just, and yeah.
Speaker 2
Most people go on this on the inner journey because of fear. I'm sorry, because of pain or desire, but for most of us is pain. Yeah. Pain is the entryway from most of us to what Robert Mohal and called the deeper
Speaker 1
journey. Yes. And I think for me, I just thought I was like pretty good, like happy. I didn't really
Speaker 2
need to grow. Yeah, you're a naturally happy person, naturally kind person. Yes. Like I'm like, what do I have to grow in these things? Like I'm pretty, I'm moral. I'm
Speaker 1
not, you know, I'm not cheating on John Marr. You know, I might have like bad self control around sugar, but like, you know, like trying to.
Speaker 1
bad. I still do. So anyway, all that to say, what ended up happening ended up diagnosed with a rare neurological disorder that primarily would affect my face. It was like having Parkinson's, it was in the Parkinson's family. It had a 50% chance of increasing in my lifetime and like progressing. And if it progressed, and I had these spasms like every day, and often when I was more flared up, which was more often in those years, those last five years, it would be more severe than other days. But if it progressed, it would get to the place. It would make it hard to eat, hard to talk, hard to kiss my husband. Yeah.
