The Paradox of Meditation

The more you try to fly, the more you go down. And it's something like that in meditating. The moment I'm not trying anymore, it's almost an instantaneous connection. So if we let go of absolute truth, then we're stuck in relative truth. But from absolute truth, there's no such thing as karma doesn't mean anything anymore and gravity isn't real. We have to somehow hold relative truth and absolute truth - which seem like opposites but aren't exactly.