The Importance of a Reality Check

I think my anxiety and just the despair. I was just a little pit of despair. My brain had reached its capacity of stress and sadness. It's so the bleakness. Especially, that must be hard because he died in October. So then you hit that fucking run of like, November, Christmas, January,. which is just bleak, cold, freezing, grey. And I put my dad in the home like in January. So I was just, I couldn't cope.