I don't have a very active practice of meditation now and it I'm thinking of revitalizing it and maybe rap will help me but what I was able to experience in the aftermath of the retreats I went on was a glimpse of what you're talking about. A feeling of self-transcendence and a connection to other people that you weren't aware existed until it came upon you. You realized that much of your way of moving through the world was very narrow and you had cut yourself off and left yourself unavailable to things that are real. Some people want to take the drug more often some people want to meditate more often, he says.