Feeling the Wave of Grief Comes in and Out of You, I'm Sitting on the Couch Right Now.

As a child, like van you're saying, not having that trust of others around me, or not growing up with that support, i'm used to a chaotic time. That's actually comfort for me. My body knows chaos and stress and disarray and pain as comfort. So i wanted to fall back there. I mean, we pay money to go watch sad movies. There's part of us that enjoys this feeling of sadness because we know it. It's something that that was kind of part of our moulding in our upbringing. We retreat there in safety. And i notice those moments still now coming in where you no, things are good and i'm doing fine, and then