The Fifth Mental Trick, Indecision

The fifth mental state is indecision, which can be seen as a form of confusion. And i think we experience this with practices like meditation. We're trying to become better at meditating, so it's like we have this mental conversation that's going on. Hum, is this really helping me? Why am i sitting here? Am i getting better at this? Shouldn't i be somewhere else, doing something more productive than just sitting here and meditating? No, i said i was going to do this, so i'm going to force myself to sit here on this cushion. Wel, what if i'm just being stubborn?