iya is actually tuning into that very strange, erotic kink that i've experienced in myself through the desecration of myself. It's like exciting, for some reason, to go from a place of just feeling almost like a hatred towards somebody like your it's disgusting that i'm dancing in this realm with you. The desire for redemption does create a massive surge of energy. We are all, i hold, the woman. Some of us have cocks and some of us have jones, ok? But we're all desecrating the feminine. We're all made up of the same wolf, fir, sharks, teeth, humming bird feathers, pine resinints, my favorite
One of my best podcasts of all time, this emotional conversation that’s been 16 years in the making, is with my wife Vylana Marcus and former fiance / best friend Caitlyn Howe. We sit down with a bottle of whiskey and let it all out. We each take turns sharing our darkest hours and deepest shadows, with a lot of tears and a lot of laughs. We discuss my devastating 6 days in a darkness retreat, my ongoing relationship with self-love, the impetus of my name change from Chris to Aubrey Marcus, and the erotic aspect of harming oneself, to name a few themes. But perhaps most powerfully, Vylana and Caitlyn share their own shocking and emotional challenges in their relationship to the masculine.