Exploring the Intersection of Charity Work and Self-Perception

The speaker initially engaged in charity work believing it reflected their moral character and good heart, instilled by their upbringing. This belief shielded them from recognizing their own treacherous, destructive, and selfish behaviors. The realization of underlying issues occurred when a breakup prompted a sense of impending doom in their seemingly perfect life, leading to an awareness of their lack of emotional connection and intuition.