Orson Spencer's Struggle between spiritual conviction and fear of social consequences

Orson Spencer experienced an inner struggle as he felt the spirit of God commending the ancient gospel to him, found in the book of mormon and the revelations of Joseph Smith. He felt a tug of war between his spiritual convictions and the fear of social consequences. He expressed concern about losing respectability and becoming the subject of ridicule. Spencer counted the cost of embracing the truth, understanding the implications for himself and his family. Despite being warned and exhorted by others, he was self-aware of the selfish nature of their appeals and the attempts to scare him out of his faith. He believed that truth should not be abandoned due to such appeals, and he saw the ignorance in the descriptions of Joseph Smith and the book of mormon given by those who warned him. Ultimately, Orson Spencer chose to embrace the truth despite the struggles and the serious contemplation he went through.