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Personal Growth and Self-Awareness in Overcoming Childhood Trauma
The speaker acknowledges personal growth and self-awareness achieved through various modalities but still struggles with feeling not good enough and having conditional love. They externalize their value based on accomplishments and feel a fear of things falling apart. Despite improvements, they admit to carrying a self-conscious protective shell, retaining the fear of a scared kid. The speaker lacks memories of being five years old, which indicates potential underlying issues. They recognize various protectors like the critic, striver, shell, imposter syndrome, perfectionism, and control, but emphasize that self-awareness alone does not prompt change. Intense work on family origin has provided better coping with childhood trauma, allowing more self-compassion and forgiveness towards parents, although latent anger related to childhood trauma still resurfaces occasionally.