I would give up everything to be a regular middle-class guy with a good life: two kids, a wife, and a regular job. But I made arrogant decisions that led me to become a 54-year-old broke scumbag with a criminal record. My son doesn't talk to me because he sees me as a scumbag who abandoned him. I've tried everything to make amends, but it's not happening. I wish I could go back and change it all.