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Triggers can be so automatic that when you realise you're triggered, you're already neck deep in your shit. That was me a week ago. Control is something my ego loves to have. It's how I feel safe and sure about my environment. So when something changes that I wasn't ready for, I feel like my space is being invaded, that something bad is going to happen to me and as a result, I close up my heart and energy and head into the brace position. I'm so aware of this, however at times, the trigger is so strong and I end up sitting inside a closed heart which I'm so done with. In today's episode I share about my most recent example of this, how I reopened my heart and started call major BS on my ego's same old story. LIVE EVENTS COMING UP!Sunday April 3rd 2022 - Sunday Meds IN REAL LIFE Melbournehttps://www.eventbrite.com.au/e/sunday-meds-in-real-life-tickets-275462424527Real & Rawhttps://katjohn.com.au/real-and-raw/The Legendshttps://katjohn.com.au/the-legends/Follow me on insta:https://www.instagram.com/kat.john/Support the show

This is a recent breakthrough that I have uncovered and am seeing in all its light. I've been working with my coach and brought this to her after noticing how I dull myself down when it comes to feminine and pretty clothing, telling myself and others, "oh I'm just not a dress person". I did this also until recently when I told myself, "I'm not a shorts person", and would wear tights and pants throughout summer!After guest speaking at an IWD event, I admired the woman who dressed sexy and boldly and wondered why I felt so uncomfortable expressing this part of me. With some solid self enquiry it became clear that I have used clothes as my boundary to communicate, "I'm not a sexy or sexual person, so stay away thanks!" During my late teens and early twenties I allowed people to treat my body however they wanted and gave it up freely. In my later twenties and early thirties I swung the opposite way, became closed and dressed to say, "not interested!"In today's episode I share where this stems from, why I've made these decisions to date and how I'm allowing myself to express this suppressed part of me in a way that feels good for me.**Please note that in today's episode there is mention of sexual abuse. Please be mindful of this prior to pressing play, treasure. LIVE EVENTS COMING UP!Sunday April 3rd 2022 - Sunday Meds IN REAL LIFE Melbournehttps://www.eventbrite.com.au/e/sunday-meds-in-real-life-tickets-275462424527Courtney D'andrea - Intimohttps://fittedbycourtney.as.me/schedule.phpFollow me on insta:https://www.instagram.com/kat.john/Support the show

I found my diary recently and read through some of the entries. Wow-wah-wee!The limiting thoughts I had back then are still the same limiting thoughts I have now, only in 2014 they were fully charged and triggered me to go down into a black hole of despair. Now, the thoughts are there, however due to ego work and knowing it more intimately, I no longer become the thoughts. This is a great episode to share with you why knowing your ego is so important, and to befriend it rather than pretend it doesn't exist, or spend the rest of your years trying to fight and get rid of it.LIVE EVENTS COMING UP!Sunday April 3rd 2022 - Sunday Meds IN REAL LIFE Melbournehttps://www.eventbrite.com.au/e/sunday-meds-in-real-life-tickets-275462424527Follow me on insta:https://www.instagram.com/kat.john/Support the show

Back in the days of chronic pain and taking pain medication on the daily after brain surgery, I got a lot of sympathy from people. My family and friends would often ask me how I'm doing, what can they do for me, and if I was okay. The frustrating part was that they couldn't do much, but it was nice to know they cared. After hitting rockbottom and wanting out, I met my Professor of Neurology who gave me an alternative approach (listen here to the podcast I did with him) which eventually led to being pain free, happy and reclaiming myself. But during that process from pain to freedom, there was a deep fear of getting better, followed by thoughts like, "no one will care about you, no one will ask you how are you, no one will offer their time". I began to notice a pattern across my life, that part of me was conditioned to get love from being unwell or something being wrong. In today's episode I share how I let go of the belief that held me in the identity of a suffering victim and what was waiting for me as a result.LIVE EVENTS COMING UP!Sunday March 20th 2022 - Gather & Grow in Bendigohttps://www.eventbrite.com.au/e/kat-john-shine-rise-tickets-163318286391Sunday April 3rd 2022 - Sunday Meds IN REAL LIFE Melbournehttps://www.eventbrite.com.au/e/sunday-meds-in-real-life-tickets-275462424527Follow me on insta:https://www.instagram.com/kat.john/Support the show

I've learned this lesson the hard way many times. Over the past two weeks with the intensity of the world, I could feel the guilt of getting on with my life, business and responsibilities kicking in. All I wanted to do was more and more for the NSW/QLD floods, and my batteries were running low.After a huge few days of helping organising Melbourne's mass donation drop for the floods, I looked at my week and it was full! My step daughters were coming back, coaching clients and guest speaking gigs for International Women's Day were ahead of me, and I thought, "if I don't pull back on the need to give out of guilt, I'll fry myself". Today's episode goes into how the guilt of being safe in a world where others are suffering can cause over giving for fear of being selfish or insensitive. There's a balance between giving and ensuring that you're filling yourself up. Have a listen to today's episode and lemme know your insights.LIVE EVENTS COMING UP!Sunday March 20th 2022 - Gather & Grow in Bendigohttps://www.eventbrite.com.au/e/kat-john-shine-rise-tickets-163318286391Sunday April 3rd 2022 - Sunday Meds IN REAL LIFE Melbournehttps://www.eventbrite.com.au/e/sunday-meds-in-real-life-tickets-275462424527Follow me on insta:https://www.instagram.com/kat.john/Support the show

I was a YES gal! My immediate response was, "yeah sure, no worries", or, "yes of course, I'd be happy to", when in actual truth, I was not happy to. The immediate yes came from a people pleasing, validation seeking and "please see me as an awesome human" place that led me to go against my deep down values. This further led to burnout due to giving out my energy without replenishing it. Over the years I have learned to say no, which really messes with the people pleasing part of me. In today's episode I share with you one powerful and simple way that with practice, allows you to know if you truly want to say yes, or deeply want to say no. Enjoy xLIVE EVENTS COMING UP!Sunday March 20th 2022 - Gather & Grow in Bendigohttps://www.eventbrite.com.au/e/kat-john-shine-rise-tickets-163318286391Sunday April 3rd 2022 - Sunday Meds IN REAL LIFE Melbournehttps://www.eventbrite.com.au/e/sunday-meds-in-real-life-tickets-275462424527Follow me on insta:https://www.instagram.com/kat.john/Support the show

Sometimes it's easy to forget how far you've come and be constantly looking forward to be your best self! I do that too as I use it as a way to step into who I choose to be, but there's a time and place to remember where you are now and where you have been in relation to that.Recently, I was doing a meditation when I was feeling doubtful about trusting the future I was moving towards. I imagined my future self came and took a seat next to me and gave me tender loving care, and a, "shhh, it's okay girl, everything is a-okay". It was mega comforting, and then something very special took place. All my previous selves appeared in my imagination and took a seat next to me too, reminding me that where I am NOW is where my previous selves have wanted to be. It was a humbling moment that took me out of stressing about the future, and being totally proud of where I'm at now.Listen to today's episode for juicy deets and golden nuggets.LIVE EVENTS COMING UP! Sunday March 20th 2022 - Gather & Grow in Bendigohttps://www.eventbrite.com.au/e/kat-john-shine-rise-tickets-163318286391Sunday April 3rd 2022 - Sunday Meds IN REAL LIFE Melbournehttps://www.eventbrite.com.au/e/sunday-meds-in-real-life-tickets-275462424527Follow me on insta:https://www.instagram.com/kat.john/FLOOD APPEALI’ve donated to: @happilyheiferafter to help these legends rebuild their animal sanctuary for reduced animals@vinniesnsw via https://donate.vinnies.org.au/appeals-nsw/vinnies-nsw-flood-appeal@vinniesqld via https://donate.vinnies.org.au/appeals-qld/vinnies-disaster-appeal-qld-2022Both Vinnies sites show you what you will be contributing with your donation.Support the show

My youngest step daughter said to me, "Kitty, when will the world get a break?" My heart, oh my heart. She's at that age now where she's aware and also bombarded with information about the world and can't un-see or un-hear what she's taken in.I get that there's always things going on in the world that are less than ideal, even cruel. It pains me to see people treating one another poorly, animals being seen as waste products or food, and the planet being stripped of its natural beauty.When I get like this, I know I need to shift my head, because I'm heading into dooms day mentality. I do truly believe to my core that if we humans took greater responsibility of ourselves, knew ego from Truth, head from heart and acted in alignment with our values, the shit that we do to each other, sentient beings and our home would would reduce.Today's episode is a raw one from my heart.  LINKSWhere to find me ...Are you ready to do the work with me? Checkout The Legends:https://katjohn.com.au/the-legends/Take your meds with me through my meditation platform. 3 day FREE trial:https://katjohn.com.au/meds/Follow me on insta:https://www.instagram.com/kat.john/FLOOD APPEALI’ve donated to: @happilyheiferafter to help these legends rebuild their animal sanctuary for reduced animals@vinniesnsw via https://donate.vinnies.org.au/appeals-nsw/vinnies-nsw-flood-appeal@vinniesqld via https://donate.vinnies.org.au/appeals-qld/vinnies-disaster-appeal-qld-2022Both Vinnies sites show you what you will be contributing with your donation.Support the show

I had one of those epic mornings recently, where I got to do all the things I love without time pressure and I friggen loved it! I call these kinds of mornings my "top shelf" self care moments.I have three levels of self care - top shelf level, first shelf level and bench top level. Bench top level self care is where I do the non negotiables, no matter how full my schedule is. This includes moving my body, journalling or meditation.First shelf level is where I take a little more time with the non negotiables. I'm not as rushed and I might take my meditation and journalling into nature with my decaf soy latte. I walk a little longer or hang back after boxing to chat with my coach. I'll add in a coffee catch up during the week.Top shelf level self care is where time is not a thing and I milk the shit outta what I'm doing, who I'm with and fall into the things that bring me joy.Have a listen and I'd love to hear what your top shelf level of self care is. Please also reach out if you struggle to put into place bench top level self care. Lotsa love xSupport the show

I've judged the feminine hard. For a long time I've viewed being "feminine" as being weak and offering no value to the world. This judgement stemmed from how I viewed my mum.She stopped nursing when my brother and I were born, to be there for us whilst my Dad worked. In my little head, I made up the belief that women have nothing much to give, whilst men go out there and get shit done. As a result, I hyper-idealised the masculine, putting all my eggs in doing, pushing, proving and working hard. Giving myself a break, time, the luxury of space to be, wander, feel and do as I please has been hard for me. My egoic beliefs flare up when I want to rest and my thoughts hammer me, saying. "you're lazy, you're a loser, you're a nobody".Over the last two years a new way forward has been calling me, and I've been listening. The resistance to balancing out the masculine and feminine in me has been real, but, worth it. Have a listen to today's episode and lemme know your insights and takeaways.LINKSWhere to find me ...Are you ready to do the work with me? Checkout The Legends:https://katjohn.com.au/the-legends/Take your meds with me through my meditation platform. 3 day FREE trial:https://katjohn.com.au/meds/Follow me on insta:https://www.instagram.com/kat.john/Support the show