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Was I In A Cult?

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Nov 4, 2021 • 52min

The Order: “Feel Like a Number”

Jeremy Tucker shares his gripping journey growing up in the strict breakaway Mormon sect known as the Order, illustrating the emotional and psychological toll of indoctrination. He discusses the bizarre health rituals and oppressive family dynamics that shaped his youth, including the burden of being a 'numbered man.' Guest producer Lindsay Hansen Park adds depth with insights on the community's dark practices and Jeremy's courageous path to freedom, exploring themes of survival, faith, and the struggle for personal identity.
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Oct 27, 2021 • 39min

The Mel Lyman Family PT 2: “Wanted at the Big House"

Guinevere Turner, a former cult member, shares her captivating journey from a dynamic Boston commune to the outside world. She reflects on the challenges of navigating life after leaving, revealing how mental ties to the cult lingered long after her physical departure. The discussion dives into the complex legacy of cult leader Mel Lyman, exposing the manipulation and abusive elements within the community. Guinevere also highlights her path to healing through creative expression, showcasing the power of reclaiming identity through art.
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Oct 20, 2021 • 44min

The Mel Lyman Family PT1: “People Get Ready“

Guinevere Turner, an actor and writer, shares her captivating yet surreal upbringing in a cult led by Mel Lyman. She unveils the stark contrast between her life and typical narratives about hippie communes. The discussion dives into her experiences with identity and belonging, the artistic and philosophical aspects of cult life, and the complexities of childhood on a Kansas farm. Turner also reflects on the gendered divisions in education and the haunting atmosphere of control that defined her upbringing, making for an enthralling recounting of her life's odyssey.
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Oct 13, 2021 • 41min

Atypicult: “Mental Parental”

In this insightful conversation, comedian Ariel shares her harrowing tale of growing up in a Persian Jewish cult in Iran. She discusses the isolation and abuse she endured, paired with dark humor about her dysfunctional family dynamics. Ariel reflects on how sitcoms like 'Full House' influenced her understanding of parenting and relationships. Her journey of breaking free from cult-like control emphasizes resilience and self-assertion. With a call to action for others affected by such experiences, Ariel blends her story with light-hearted comedic moments.
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Oct 6, 2021 • 44min

Children of God: “Pray for Death”

Flor Edwards, an author who escaped the traumatic grasp of the Children of God cult, shares her harrowing journey. She recounts the chaotic life within the cult, often marked by frequent relocations and a chilling leader. The discussion also dives into disturbing sexual teachings that shaped her upbringing. Flor reflects on the absurdity of cult philosophies, the complex transition to normal life, and the empowering role of education and writing in her healing. Her story is a powerful reminder of resilience and the quest for freedom.
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Sep 29, 2021 • 49min

Jehovah’s Witnesses: “Shut Up and Be Blessed“

Daniel O'Brien, a former high-ranking Elder in Jehovah's Witnesses, shares his journey from pursuing rockstar dreams to immersing himself in a strict religious life. He discusses the allure of community and the dark tactics of love bombing that drew him in. As he grapples with the manipulative structures and disciplinary measures of the organization, he reflects on the emotional turmoil of trying to balance personal aspirations with religious expectations. Ultimately, his quest for authenticity leads to a profound transformation.
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Sep 22, 2021 • 58min

Women Only Secret Society (NXIVM) PT 2: "Collateral Damaged"

Jessica Joan, a fierce ninja warrior and former member of a women-only secret society, shares her gripping journey within NXIVM. She reveals the insidious psychological manipulation techniques employed by the organization, highlighting the use of a deceptive language that twists personal accountability. Jessica discusses the unsettling concept of 'collateral' and reflects on her escape from emotional and physical oppression. Her story sheds light on the complexities of loyalty, manipulation, and the arduous path to reclaiming autonomy.
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Sep 15, 2021 • 50min

Women Only Secret Society (NXIVM) PT 1: "The Magic Sauce"

Jessica Joan, a former partygoer turned self-help advocate, shares her transformative journey from chaotic nights in the LA scene to confronting childhood trauma. She reveals how her pursuit of improvement led her to NXIVM, a self-empowerment group with dark secrets. The discussion dives into the emotional manipulation within NXIVM, the alluring yet exploitative nature of its rituals, and the complex relationships formed in the quest for connection. It's a compelling tale of resilience and the search for a path towards true self-discovery.
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Sep 8, 2021 • 39min

Mormon…More Women PT 2: "I do… I do… I don’t."

Joanne, an author and former polygamist, shares her journey through the unconventional world of extreme Mormonism. She recounts her experiences in a Utah town filled with prophetic visions and peculiar rituals. The conversation dives into the complexities of polygamous relationships, navigating intimacy, and the emotional challenges women face. Joanne reflects on the importance of self-identity, the healing power of admitting failure, and raising awareness about cultic abuse. Her insightful stories blend humor and heart, inviting listeners to explore freedom beyond traditional beliefs.
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Sep 8, 2021 • 37min

Mormon…More Women PT 1: "My Husband’s Wife"

Joanne, an author and former member of a polygamous Mormon community, shares her intriguing journey through life shaped by quirky beliefs and rituals. She discusses the existential dread behind her move to a small Utah town, where she encountered extreme practices like prophetic visions and the law of celestial marriage. Joanne offers humorous insights into dating pressures at Brigham Young University, while also tackling the challenges of leaving a patriarchal faith. Her stories reflect the delightful absurdity and serious implications of life in a cult-like environment.

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