Find Your Food Voice

How long have you been at diet rock bottom? What's keeping you stuck? For many they have tried things like Intuitive Eating yet don't feel successful because they aren't thin. Can you relate? There is a way through this. Listen to this latest Love Food Podcast episode for more. Subscribe and leave a review here in just seconds. This episode is brought to you by my courses: PCOS and Food Peace and Dietitians PCOS and Food Peace. You CAN make peace with food even with PCOS and I want to show you how. This episode's Dear Food letter: Dear Food, I have been trying to make things right with you for a while now. I've been exploring intuitive eating for the last year, and we've had some successful moments together. Remember when I wasn't able to keep ice cream in the house? Now I have multiple containers, which I eat when I'm in the mood and don't think about when I'm not. That's something I feel proud of.   I still make mistakes when it comes to our relationship - I know there are times I eat past fullness, and there are times I eat when I'm not hungry. I am trying to be as compassionate as I can with myself, but then l I see myself in a mirror.   I threw away my scale in October, and haven't been on one since. But it's pretty obvious I have gained weight. Mostt of my old clothes don't fit, and getting ready for work and social events is fraught with anxiety. I have bought things in new sizes,  but  I cannot shake the awful feelings that almost paralyze me when I see myself.   I was not somebody who needed to be weight restored. What I feared would happen, happened. I gained weight. I always thought that if I binged less and practiced intuitive eating that I would somehow magically become thin. That didn't happen for me. I know I can't go back to dieting, but I also can't seem to accept myself this way.   I know about body positivity, HAES, and fat acceptance, but I can't seem to get there. Forget about body love - I'd be happy with body neutrality. It seems impossible for me to love my body at this weight when I know look better thinner.   I don't know what to do about us, Food. I will not diet again, but I second guess my choices a lot. Even when I hear experts talk about intuitive eating, they always say things like, "Don't worry - you won't always want to eat Oreos or pizza" as if those foods truly are bad. I  want to give myself freedom to eat whatever I want, but in exchange, I hate how I look.   Where do we go from here, Food?   Love, Feeling like a failure Show Notes: Virgie Tovar and her latest book (aff) You Have the Right to Remain Fat Ragen Chastain and her blog Dances with Fat Sonya Renee Taylor and her latest books The Body is Not an Apology and Celebrate Your Body (A body image book for girls) Intuitive Eating by Tribole and Resch Love Food Podcast with Amy Pershing Julie Dillon RD blog Link to subscribe to the Love Food’s Food Peace Syllabus. Eating Disorder Dietitian Julie Dillon RD blog Do you have a complicated relationship with food? I want to help! Send your Dear Food letter to LoveFoodPodcast@gmail.com.  Click here to leave me a review in iTunes and subscribe. This type of kindness helps the show continue!Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

How long have you struggled with eating? Do you remember when it first got complicated? What if you have struggled your whole life after years of abuse, shame and fear? Is there a way to heal in our current diet focused and fatphobic world? Listen now for possible tools to promote your Food Peace journey. Subscribe and leave a review here in just seconds. This episode is brought to you by my courses: PCOS and Food Peace and Dietitians PCOS and Food Peace. You CAN make peace with food even with PCOS and I want to show you how. This episode's Dear Food letter: Dear Food, Dear oh dear food, you have been the bane of my existence since I was born. I started with diary allergies that took time to diagnose so from a newborn, my food relationship has been difficult. That difficulty has morphed into many different things, anxiety soothing with food, fear of food, restriction, bulimia, anorexia, binge eating and so on. I’ve struggled to understand you. When I was young, about six years old, my life changed a lot because of an abusive homelife, then at seven, it turned to shear torture due to physical and sexual abuse. I coped by stealing food (at home, other people’s houses, stores and so on), hiding and eating it. I learned to eat until sick, then purge to make myself feel better so I could eat some more. One very traumatizing event, I remember hiding multiple PB&Js behind the trashcan in the cabinet for later and once the event was over, I hid where I thought I belonged, behind the trash and ate them all, at seven years old… The trauma (really torture) went on and on and I ate and ate, and I gained and gained. I was also tortured in school for my weight and lack of social skills. Through all of this, I was caring for my younger sister since no one taking care of either of us and was also caring for my parents who could not care for themselves. As I grew into a teenager my body started to change, but it was changing differently from others. I didn’t know at the time that it was PCOS at the time, but it was. I was growing hair on my face, I started shaving my face at about 12 or 13, my body shape was different, and my weight was going up at what I was told an alarming rate. By 6 th grade, I was “obese”. Once the torture stopped at home (not in my mind), I was 20, I kept on eating, doctors kept telling me to lose weight, my mother kept telling me how terrible I looked, and others would tell me “you would have such a pretty face and eyes, if you’d just lose some weight…” I kept eating and purging. I had two stays in a mental health facility and they tried to work on my relationship with food, but that was not the major reason I was inpatient, there was a much more intense reason I was there. They tried but I was not ready. Eleven years ago, at 28, after trying to conceive for about a year, I was diagnosed with PCOS. It took us three years to conceive the first time which ended as an early loss. I had six more losses and then no other pregnancies. I ate through all the losses and was told, had I not been so fat, I would not have gotten PCOS and would also be able to get and stay pregnant by a doctor. I ate some more until I didn’t. I started restricting about six years ago and lost a very significant amount of weight. I was restricting so much I would pass out due an inability to my keep my blood pressure high enough and could not keep my body temperature stable to the point where I wore winter clothes in the summer. I kept this going for two years then the binging started again. I was never able to get my weight low enough to alert any doctors of an eating disorder, but I would guess that is from the PCOS. I have since been working with a wonderful therapist for seven years and an amazing eating disorder and HAES registered dietician for almost two years. I still struggle to this day with the thoughts that go along with an eating disorder. Dear, oh dear Food, will I ever “get” you? Will I ever “understand” you? I know none of this is about you, but it is just a way to cope and control one small part of my life when I was unable to control anything but morphed to lack of control around you. I want a relationship with you Food, but, it is oh so embarrassingly hard. I do have hope Food, that someday, there will be calmness and no charge between you and I. Someday I can enjoy you… Love, Frustrated but Hopeful Show Notes: Binge Eating Disorder: The Journey to Recovery and Beyond by Amy Pershing and Chevese Turner PCOS and Food Peace Podcast chapter 6 with Chevese Turner Love Food Podcast with Amy Pershing Julie Dillon RD blog Link to subscribe to the Love Food’s Food Peace Syllabus. Eating Disorder Dietitian Julie Dillon RD blog Do you have a complicated relationship with food? I want to help! Send your Dear Food letter to LoveFoodPodcast@gmail.com.  Click here to leave me a review in iTunes and subscribe. This type of kindness helps the show continue! Show Notes: Glossary and references here. Julie Dillon RD blog Link to subscribe to the weekly FREE Food Peace™ Newsletter. By signing up, I will also send you Love Food’s Food Peace™ Syllabus. Eating Disorder Dietitian Julie Dillon RD blog Do you have a complicated relationship with food? I want to help! Send your Dear Food letter to LoveFoodPodcast@gmail.com.  Click here to leave me a review in iTunes and subscribe. This type of kindness helps the show continue!Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

What does it mean to be anti-diet? Or HAES? Can someone actually be healthy at every size? Why are HAES dietitians always talking politics? Have you had these questions? Tired of feeling bad and uncomfortable about how you eat or practice as a dietitian promoting diets? This episode can clear the air for you. Listen on for more. Subscribe and leave a review here in just seconds. This episode is brought to you by my courses: PCOS and Food Peace and Dietitians PCOS and Food Peace. You CAN make peace with food even with PCOS and I want to show you how. Episode's Key Points: What unites us is greater than what divides us. Weight loss is… Lived experiences Can someone be healthy at every size? Weight-normative Weight-inclusive Does higher BMI cause poor health? VIII. Dieting data Weight maintenance: willpower or pathology? Weight-inclusive approaches Acceptance Permission Social justice Improving dietetics through diversity Show Notes: Glossary and references here. Julie Dillon RD blog Link to subscribe to the weekly FREE Food Peace™ Newsletter. By signing up, I will also send you Love Food’s Food Peace™ Syllabus. Eating Disorder Dietitian Julie Dillon RD blog Do you have a complicated relationship with food? I want to help! Send your Dear Food letter to LoveFoodPodcast@gmail.com.  Click here to leave me a review in iTunes and subscribe. This type of kindness helps the show continue!Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

Have you ever been made to feel like you are to blame for a medical condition like diabetes, PCOS, high blood pressure or gestational diabetes? More specifically, have you been told that your body size has caused you to experience a particular condition? If so, you are not alone. Listen along as Julie Dillon helps unpack the unfair stereotypes often associated with being in a higher weight body. Episode's Key Points: The label of "obesity" as a disease is problematic. Being at a higher weight is unfairly associated with many stigmas and misconceptions. For example, anorexia nervosa at a higher weight is actually the most common way to experience it. Weight is just one anthropometric measurement like blood pressure, temperature, etc. It doesn't mean it causes any condition/disease but rather could indicate that we need to dig deeper for a root issue. No one is to blame for their body size nor is one's body size something to feel shame about. Simply being alive means we are valuable and worthy. Intuitive eating can be utilized by everyone, no matter their body size or any conditions they may be experiencing. Show Notes: Julie Dillon RD blog Link to subscribe to the weekly FREE Food Peace™ Newsletter. It is sent out every Tuesday morning. By signing up, I will also send you Love Food's Food Peace™ Syllabus. Megrette Fletcher, registered dietitian and diabetes educator's website and interview on the Love, Food podcast ->This week's Food Peace Syllabus additon #1 Julie Dillon's PCOS and Food Peace podcast--Chapter 2-->This week's Food Peace Syllabus addition #2 Eating Disorder Dietitians can help your Food Peace™ journey. Get access to one near you here. Do you have a complicated relationship with food? I want to help! Send your Dear Food letter to LoveFoodPodcast@gmail.com.  Click here to leave me a review in iTunes and subscribe. This type of kindness helps the show continue! Thank you for listening to the Love, Food series.Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

Do you feel like you've done everything to tackle your struggle with binge eating? Is there a constant battle in your head over cravings? Listen now to hear some solutions on how to overcome this food peace struggle. Subscribe and leave a review here in just seconds. This episode is brought to you by my FREE roadmap: Your First 3 Steps Towards Food Peace with PCOS. You CAN make peace with food even with PCOS and I want to show you how. Join our Facebook group to get extra support! Episode's Key Points: The recovery process is NOT linear, and it takes TIME. Isabel Foxen Duke joins to talk about dieting, bingeing, and more! Physical restriction is NOT THE SAME as emotional and psychological restriction... even if you're eating "enough," bingeing can still occur if you feel mental restriction. Diet mentality is the bigger thing to break down when trying to break free from bingeing! Cravings are neutral things!! We don't need to feel shame about them. Emotional eating and binge eating are two different things! Emotional eating is when we eat something in order to make ourselves feel better. It's a coping mechanism to distract, comfort, soothe or avoid a feeling. Binge eating, on the other hand, is a reaction to the diet mentality. Isabel calls is reactionary eating! For example, when you tell yourself you can't have "x" food, all you want is "x" food, and then it results in a binge. Food is never black and white! Just because we think we're eating "enough," we actually may not be because we live in a restrictive, diet-culture world. Diet mentality tells us that there's a right and wrong way to eat. Giving up dieting is giving up an attitude around food that categorizes certain food behaviors as safe and others as unsafe. "The Don't Binge Eat Diet:" when you're desperately trying to avoid and overcome the urge to binge, which only perpetuates a binge. Think about a bow and arrow... the farther back you pull the bow and the more tension your build, the farther that bow will fly in the other direction when you inevitably let go! There's NOTHING wrong with emotional eating!! The only reason why people fear emotional eating is because we fear getting fat. Emotional eating turns into a binge when we decide that the action we're doing is not okay and feel shameful about it. Quitting dieting doesn't just mean you've put down the calorie counts and the weight loss goals... it means we leave behind the "right" and "wrong" with food. When we struggle with food, we have to ask, where is the restriction happening?? Where is the diet mentality hiding? Not dieting is a physical AND emotional issue! 90% of recovering from dieting is about the diet mentality and diet attitudes, and only 10% of it is about the physical. If you are clinging to ANY kind of wagon, you will inevitably fall off! Permission to binge is step one!! It's time to overcome emotional restriction. You have permission to be where you are right now, and to meet your needs in however you need to. Show Notes: Julie Dillon RD blog Link to subscribe to the weekly FREE Food Peace™ Newsletter. By signing up, I will also send you Love Food’s Food Peace™ Syllabus. Isabel's video training series, Stop Fighting Food ---> This week's Food Peace syllabus addition #1 Isabel's blog ---> This week's Food Peace syllabus addition #2 Connect with Isabel by getting on her email list! Eating Disorder Dietitian Julie Dillon RD blog Do you have a complicated relationship with food? I want to help! Send your Dear Food letter to LoveFoodPodcast@gmail.com.  Click here to leave me a review in iTunes and subscribe. This type of kindness helps the show continue!Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

You know diets don't work. Do you gravitate toward the body positive message yet hung up on one thing... You don't love your body because you want to lose weight. You find your body unacceptable. There is a way through this. Listen now for insight. Subscribe and leave a review here in just seconds. Key Points: Do you have a complicated relationship with food? I want to help. Send your Dear Food letter to LoveFoodPodcast@gmail.com. If you feel like a failure because you can't lose weight or keep it off, know you are not to blame. Diets have failed you. Dieting predicts weight gain. Dieting promotes the idea of body hate and conditional acceptance. Does a deeper understanding of diet culture, its toxicity, and manipulation make you angry? Stay with it! It's ok to not accept your body. You are acceptable the way you are today. The end. Your body is acceptable no matter what. Oprah Winfrey joined weight watchers and Julie's mind was blown to see diet culture and its reign make one of the most amazing women also feel not enough. First step: work on RESPECTING your body. Challenge the false truths. Claim your space and find those who agree with body positivity. Show Notes: The Bodcast Podcast Dietland by Sarai Walker Oprah: Science says it won't be different this time. Dear Oprah (Julie's initial reaction to the news that Oprah Winfrey bought WW stock) JCPenny's #HereIAm video Eating Disorder Dietitians Julie Dillon RD blog Do you have a complicated relationship with food? I want to help! Send your Dear Food letter to LoveFoodPodcast@gmail.com.  Click here to leave me a review in iTunes and subscribe. This type of kindness helps the show continue! Thank you for listening to the Love, Food series. Give me feedback via Twitter @EatingPermitRD.Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

Are you caught up in the mania that is motherhood? Do you find yourself feeling fatigued when it comes to making decisions regarding your kids' food choices? Does it feel as if your own relationship with food is being challenged? You're in the right place. Julie Duffy Dillon provides a heart-to-heart on this rewarding, but often exhausting stage. Episode's Key Points: Parenting often triggers many forms of stress. Finding ways to complete tasks in more efficient ways can help relieve some of this anxiety. If you have a history of an eating disorder or disordered eating, you may find these old behaviors and ways of coping return as you are dealing with the challenges of parenthood. Eating for comfort and emotional eating are both very normal human ways of coping. It is not the food choices that are concerning but rather the self-shaming thoughts and feelings we have around the choices we make. When these thoughts come up, call them out for what they are and provide self-compassion. Connecting with a therapist provides a safe space to process your concerns. Gather support from fellow mothers and intuitive eating mom experts. Show Notes: Julie Dillon RD blog Link to subscribe to the weekly FREE Food Peace™ Newsletter. It is sent out every Tuesday morning. By signing up, I will also send you Love Food's Food Peace™ Syllabus. Lindsey Stenovec's Intuitive Eating For Moms-->This week's Food Peace Syllabus addition #1 Lindsey Stenovec's podcast: The Embodied and Well Mom Show--->This week's Food Peace Syllabus addition #2 Eating Disorder Dietitians can help your Food Peace™ journey. Get access to one near you here. Do you have a complicated relationship with food? I want to help! Send your Dear Food letter to LoveFoodPodcast@gmail.com.  Click here to leave me a review in iTunes and subscribe. This type of kindness helps the show continue! Thank you for listening to the Love, Food series.Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

Have you been on a diet for as long as you can remember? Do you find yourself feeling confused about food and your body because of mixed messages you received from your family? Are you looking to break free from an endless cycle of dieting and bingeing? Special guest Melissa Toler provides a compassionate voice alongside your Food Peace journey. Episode's Key Points: Special guest Melissa Toler, former wellness coach turned writer, speaker, and educator. Our relationship with food and our bodies often is based off of our early childhood experiences. Making peace with food and your body is an ongoing process. Rest assured, you are not doing it wrong. Writing can be a therapeutic tool that allows you to hear your own voice over the external voices that we often hear regarding our bodies. Filter your book collection to include fat positive and non-diet messages. Show Notes: Julie Dillon RD blog Link to subscribe to the weekly FREE Food Peace™ Newsletter. It is sent out every Tuesday morning. By signing up, I will also send you Love Food's Food Peace™ Syllabus. Sonya Renee Taylor's The Body Is Not An Apology-->This week's Food Peace Syllabus addition #1---> This week's Food Peace Syllabus addition #1 Melissa Toler's Write to Get Free course--->This week's Food Peace Syllabus addition #2 Melissa Toler's blog---->This week's Food Peace Syllabus addition #3 Eating Disorder Dietitians can help your Food Peace™ journey. Get access to one near you here. Do you have a complicated relationship with food? I want to help! Send your Dear Food letter to LoveFoodPodcast@gmail.com.  Click here to leave me a review in iTunes and subscribe. This type of kindness helps the show continue! Thank you for listening to the Love, Food series.Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

Do you feel like you have no willpower when it comes to food? Does it seem like you will never get out of the cycle of dieting and bingeing? Are you even wondering if you may have a food addiction? Listen along as Julie Duffy Dillon provides insight on your next steps. Episode's Key Points: Nutrition Myth: Calories in, calories out is the key to weight loss.--->Fat phobia is actually at the root of this false message Intuitive Eating will help bring about peace with food and your body through rebuilding connections with your body and allowing food to be consumed for both fuel and pleasure. Taking steps to dismantle our fat phobic system and move towards body liberation is key to promoting health for us all. Our worldview of bodies is broken, not our bodies. Research shows that diets don't work for most people. Saying someone is addicted to food is like saying they're addicted to oxygen, water, warmth, and sleep --->we need all of these to stay alive; "We can't be addicted to something we need to survive" --Amy Pershing Connect with as many fat positive people as you are able in order to help move towards body autonomy and body liberation. Show Notes: Julie Dillon RD blog Link to subscribe to the weekly FREE Food Peace™ Newsletter. It is sent out every Tuesday morning. By signing up, I will also send you Love Food's Food Peace™ Syllabus. Sonya Renee Taylor's The Body Is Not An Apology-->This week's Food Peace Syllabus addition #1---> This week's Food Peace Syllabus addition #1 Other podcasts promoting food and body peace: Christy Harrison's Food Psych, Paige Smathers' Nutrition Matters--->This week's Food Peace Syllabus addition #2 Eating Disorder Dietitians can help your Food Peace™ journey. Get access to one near you here. Do you have a complicated relationship with food? I want to help! Send your Dear Food letter to LoveFoodPodcast@gmail.com.  Click here to leave me a review in iTunes and subscribe. This type of kindness helps the show continue! Thank you for listening to the Love, Food series.Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

Do you ever feel guilt for eating certain foods? Do you fear judgement about what other people will think about your body or food choices? Do you ever catch yourself labeling food "good" or bad?" Are you finding it difficult to feel at home in your aging body? Listen along to this week's episode as Amanda Martinez Beck helps provide meaningful reflection. Episode's Key Points: Special guest: Amanda Martinez Beck, co-host of the Fat and Faithful podcast Typically, we feel shame when we feel as though we have failed at meeting some type of expectations. When processing body shame, it is often helpful to turn the conversation to, "What is the purpose of my body?" and being able to shift our understanding of its purpose from being a means to control life's uncertainties to being a bridge of connection to other people. Quote to live by: "All bodies are good bodies"--because all types of bodies can form connections with others. Our aging bodies tell our stories and reflect ours and our ancestors' journeys. Show Notes: Julie Dillon RD blog Link to subscribe to the weekly FREE Food Peace™ Newsletter. It is sent out every Tuesday morning. By signing up, I will also send you Love Food's Food Peace™ Syllabus. Fat and Faithful podcast--->This week's Food Peace Syllabus addition #1---> This week's Food Peace Syllabus addition #1 Amanda Martinez Beck's Lovely: How I Learned to Embrace the Body God Gave Me (releasing December 6, 2018) --->This week's Food Peace Syllabus addition #2 Eating Disorder Dietitians can help your Food Peace™ journey. Get access to one near you here. Do you have a complicated relationship with food? I want to help! Send your Dear Food letter to LoveFoodPodcast@gmail.com.  Click here to leave me a review in iTunes and subscribe. This type of kindness helps the show continue! Thank you for listening to the Love, Food series.Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy