
Big Hormone Enneagram
⚠️DISCLAIMER: This enneagram podcast contains highly charged elements. Contents may cause unexpected states of psychological depth and trigger unconventional insight. Listener discretion is advised. Hosted by John Luckovich, Emeka Okorafor, David Gray, Alexandra Arroyo-Acevedo
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Apr 18, 2025 • 5min
Outro
HERE LIES THE REMAINS OF THE BIG HORMONE ENNEAGRAM PODCAST, 2020-2025
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Jan 13, 2025 • 1h 2min
BHE 199 - THE ENNEAGRAM INSTINCTS OF CHAKRAS - DAVIDXKRISTEN
Special episode with DG and Kristen of the Sinsomnia podcast on the instincts in chakras. Link for the Chakra/Instinct Correlation Diagram to follow along in our conversation: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1RBqzLoZ5X0JEqE_LlVlYVqOkzg61bL-c/view?usp=sharing
—(1:27) - The archetypal sexual instinct; destruction and creation
—(6:05) - Self-Preservation concretizing out of fear, the shadow side of the sexual instinct in war
—(9:09) - The 7 chakras and their overlap with the enneagram instinctual stackings
—(17:11) - The significance in the numbers of leaves on the chakra lotus'
—(24:42) - Tracking the instincts through the centers in the dream realm
—(28:25) - Kristen links the chakras in a different way
—(31:12) - The Sexual instinct in the Root, Sacral, and Solar Plexus chakras
—(39:13) - The Social instinct within the Heart chakra
—(42:31) - The Self-Preservation instinct overlapping the Throat and Third Eye chakras
—(47:17) - David brings his wisdom; kundalini and the practice of alchemy
—(54:30) - Social blind deadness and Vampires
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Donate to support the show:
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Alexandra’s astrology-enneagram readings and trash tv gossip: https://www.saturnruled9.com
Buy John’s instinct book: https://www.amazon.com/dp/0578784971/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_fabc_VZ3VZVEG0M1RY42AWN2T
You’re a bread person if you only have one copy of DG’s Trifix Booklet: https://www.enneagrammer.com/store/trifix-venn-booklet-david-gray
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Jan 4, 2025 • 2h 58min
BHE 198 - 2024 END OF YEAR WRAP PARTY
Join us with libations and preferred substances as we look back on the beautiful dumpster fire that was 2024.
—(1:27) 4-wings episode postpartum
—(9:39) “This podcast used to be good”
—(14:48) More Alexandra vs Emeka shit talk
—(21:28) Welcome to our end of year 5 drunk pod
—(24:10) What we’ve contributed to the enneagram
—(29:30) Embodying real spirituality
—(35:20) 2024 highlights - Akashic Records
—(39:58) Instinct zone stems
—(43:05) The heart center and 3w2 vs 3w4
—(1:02:10) Josh’s object relations theory
—(1:09:36) ChatGPT can’t mimic DG’s writing style
—(1:14:44) The dream girls and kung-fu / Unshaming the types with Kristen
—(1:24:39) Withdrawn excursions to the backrooms / Before and after of sexual
—(1:28:48) Mushroom trips and depression
—(1:41:01) Toronto meetup and social as easy exchange
—(1:49:17) New most hated types
—(1:54:17) 137 ted talk trifix and Musk being weird
—(2:04:05) The year of frustration dreams and fantasy / 4 as a fantasy type
—(2:23:16) 3w4 American psycho episode with Louis
—(2:32:25) Most redeemed types
—(2:41:51) Relationship between identity and sexuality / masculine and feminine polarities
Get the new intro Enneagram Audio Course from Josh & John: https://www.theenneagramschool.com/intro-enneagram-course
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Donate to support the show:
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Alexandra’s astrology-enneagram readings and trash tv gossip: https://www.saturnruled9.com
Buy John’s instinct book for christmas: https://www.amazon.com/dp/0578784971/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_fabc_VZ3VZVEG0M1RY42AWN2T
You’re a bread person if you only have one copy of DG’s Trifix Booklet: https://www.enneagrammer.com/store/trifix-venn-booklet-david-gray
Call the BHE hotline with your questions at (323) 696-0647. Or you can also email bhepodcast@gmail.com or DM us with a pre-recorded voice message

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Dec 28, 2024 • 1h 33min
BHE 197 - WE GIVE YOU 4-WINGS
The hosts dive deep into the emotional complexities of Enneagram type Four, contrasting wings three and five. They hilariously explore the tension between individuality and societal expectations faced by 4w3s and 4w5s. Listeners are treated to insightful discussions about personal identity, the art of self-expression, and the unique qualities of these types in relationships. The journey through the nuanced world of Fours reveals the beauty found in emotional depths and the interplay between authenticity and persona. Get ready for some mind-bending insights!

Dec 17, 2024 • 1h 19min
BHE 196 - ESOTERIC STAR WARS [PART II]: THE PATH OF PRINCESS LEIA - JOHNXKRISTEN
Continuing where we left off with John and Kristen of the Sinsomnia podcast on the archetypal feminine/masculine myths in Star Wars.
**start sending in your questions and comments for episode #200**
—(1:27) Couples that look like siblings
—(5:50) The different splits in masculine/feminine psyche
—(8:06) Social shadow work to understand sexual instinct/individuation
—(9:52) Seeing masculine/feminine as energies rather than compartmentalized roles
—(13:53) Anger’s role in the sexual instinct
—(16:38) The idea of integration, holding the tension
—(18:15) Being able to stretch and expand creatively
—(19:14) Mother projections, living in paradox
—(24:33) A neutralizing force versus an activating force
—(30:12) Libidinal energy being trapped in the mother
—(31:56) Zooming out with Gurdjieff
—(41:30) Attunement to the unconscious energies of the centers and instincts
—(45:03) Understanding instinctual and neurotic fear
—(49:37) The terror of police body cam footage in suburban America
—(54:29) The aesthetic realm and its role in reality’s horror show
—(56:58) Concretizing murder in the image of slaying the dragon
—(1:03:37) Art pulling you out of knowing and certainty
—(1:07:53) Moving towards your death, keeping things novel
Donate to support the show:
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venmo - @bighormone
Pre-order the new intro Enneagram Audio Course from Josh & John: https://www.theenneagramschool.com/intro-enneagram-course
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Alexandra’s astrology-enneagram readings and trash tv gossip: https://www.saturnruled9.com
Buy John’s instinct book for christmas: https://www.amazon.com/dp/0578784971/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_fabc_VZ3VZVEG0M1RY42AWN2T
You’re a bread person if you only have one copy of DG’s Trifix Booklet: https://www.enneagrammer.com/store/trifix-venn-booklet-david-gray
Call the BHE hotline with your questions at (323) 696-0647. Or you can also email bhepodcast@gmail.com or DM us with a pre-recorded voice message

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Dec 8, 2024 • 1h 31min
BHE 195 - ESOTERIC STAR WARS: THE PATH OF PRINCESS LEIA [PART I] - JOHNXKRISTEN
Special episode with John and Kristen of the Sinsomnia podcast on the archetypal feminine/masculine myths in Star Wars.
**start sending in your questions and comments for episode #200**
— (1:27) Plugs
— (5:53) Salome & Star Wars intro
— (7:00) Conditions of existence, Masculine/Feminine, and the third force
— (10:38) John sets the Star Wars stage
— (12:53) A New Hope: Princess Leia Loses It All
— (19:58) Empire Strikes Back: Introducing Eros
— (23:05) Return of the Jedi: The Metal Bikini
— (27:28) The power fantasy, fathers/sons, and male expectations
— (32:00) Kristen zooms out with the Star Wars mythology
— (34:52) A glimpse of the feminine journey
— (39:04) Dualistic feminine energies & Leia’s psyche
— (47:20) Where are the feminine stories?
— (52:15) Jung’s ‘Answer to Job’: Why is God a dick?
— (56:20) Salome’s story
— (1:02:30) The Death Mother
— (1:06:00) The journey of the three instincts, Anima/Animus
— (1:17:00) Alien: the violence of being born
— (1:25:00) Masculine pain & the parental complexes
Donate to support the show:
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Check out the upcoming new Enneagram Audio Course with Josh & John at:
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https://www.enneagrammer.com/
Alexandra’s astrology-enneagram readings and trash tv gossip: https://www.saturnruled9.com
Josh and John’s 6-part class on the centers of intelligence and object relations: https://www.theenneagramschool.com/developmental-centers
Only morons still don’t have John’s instinct book: https://www.amazon.com/dp/0578784971/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_fabc_VZ3VZVEG0M1RY42AWN2T
You’re a bread person if you only have one copy of DG’s Trifix Booklet once: https://www.enneagrammer.com/store/trifix-venn-booklet-david-gray
Call the BHE hotline with questions for episode #200 at (323) 696-0647. Or you can also email bhepodcast@gmail.com or DM us with a pre-recorded voice message

Nov 14, 2024 • 1h 34min
BHE 194 - BALTASAR EBANGS A LOT
Diving into the shadow sex scandal putting equatorial guinea on the map.
— (1:27) New formats for the pod / send in questions for episode #200
— (5:15) The African gov’t official sex tapes scandal
— (12:51) He’s a smooth criminal 9
— (27:09) Sexual blind conservatism in African culture
— (36:26) Freakoffs is the douchiest DJ name / sexual narcissism
— (40:15) Dispersed mass triangulation in 9s
— (46:43) 3w2 DJ roast segment
— (56:37) The delusions we create and uphold to avoid reality / attachment nostalgia
— (1:11:17) Knowing the monster within
— (1:15:55) Maladaptive self-subversion and sx instinct edge-seeking
— (1:21:19) Big Hormone SP segment
— (1:29:55) The orange man is 2-1 Social
Donate to support the show:
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venmo - @bighormone
The Pain of the Blindspot seminar with John & Alexandra
https://www.theenneagramschool.com/painoftheblindspot
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https://www.enneagrammer.com/
Alexandra’s astrology-enneagram readings and trash tv gossip: https://www.saturnruled9.com
Josh and John’s 6-part class on the centers of intelligence and object relations: https://www.theenneagramschool.com/developmental-centers
Only morons still don’t have John’s instinct book: https://www.amazon.com/dp/0578784971/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_fabc_VZ3VZVEG0M1RY42AWN2T
You’re a bread person if you only have one copy of DG’s Trifix Booklet once: https://www.enneagrammer.com/store/trifix-venn-booklet-david-gray
Call the BHE hotline with your questions at (323) 696-0647. Or you can also email bhepodcast@gmail.com or DM us with a pre-recorded voice message

Oct 17, 2024 • 39min
BHE 193 - CONTRASYNS
— (1:27) The Big Hormone Self-Pres podcast
— (3:37) Psychedelics as anti-depressants (correction: serotonin is a neurotransmitter not a hormone)
— (11:26) COVID stories and launching the pod
— (16:31) The great disillusionment
— (19:51) Trump and elon dork
— (21:52) Synflow vs contraflow in autonomy conflicts
— (33:30) Getting back into the wing series / 3w2vs3w4
Donate to support the show:
https://paypal.me/bighormone
venmo - @bighormone
The Pain of the Blindspot seminar with John & Alexandra
https://www.theenneagramschool.com/painoftheblindspot
Find out what flavor of toxic you are 9w19w88w99w81w99w89w16w76w79w19w86w59w89w19w86w76w79w8
https://www.enneagrammer.com/
Alexandra’s astrology-enneagram readings and trash tv gossip: https://www.saturnruled9.com
Josh and John’s 6-part class on the centers of intelligence and object relations: https://www.theenneagramschool.com/developmental-centers
Only morons still don’t have John’s instinct book: https://www.amazon.com/dp/0578784971/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_fabc_VZ3VZVEG0M1RY42AWN2T
You’re a bread person if you only have one copy of DG’s Trifix Booklet once: https://www.enneagrammer.com/store/trifix-venn-booklet-david-gray
Call the nota4 hotline with your comments at (323) 696-0647. Or you can also email bhepodcast@gmail.com or DM us with a pre-recorded voice message

Oct 1, 2024 • 50min
BHE 192 - a near death experience
— (1:27) the john stream from the void
— (5:22) consciousness experiencing itself and letting go
— (8:45) complicated relationship to brotherhood
— (18:10) a zone is always happening
— (22:08) energy around male connection
— (35:10) self-pres nerd out
— (40:52) bhe guide to crashing out / menendez brothers parent killing
— (45:55) zone stem updates and diddy freakoffs
Donate to support the show:
https://paypal.me/bighormone
venmo - @bighormone
The Pain of the Blindspot seminar with John & Alexandra
https://www.theenneagramschool.com/painoftheblindspot
Find out what flavor of toxic you are 9w19w88w99w81w99w89w16w76w79w19w86w59w89w19w86w76w79w8
https://www.enneagrammer.com/
Alexandra’s astrology-enneagram readings and trash tv gossip: https://www.saturnruled9.com
Josh and John’s 6-part class on the centers of intelligence and object relations: https://www.theenneagramschool.com/developmental-centers
Only morons still don’t have John’s instinct book: https://www.amazon.com/dp/0578784971/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_fabc_VZ3VZVEG0M1RY42AWN2T
You’re a bread person if you only have one copy of DG’s Trifix Booklet once: https://www.enneagrammer.com/store/trifix-venn-booklet-david-gray
Call the nota4 hotline with your comments at (323) 696-0647. Or you can also email bhepodcast@gmail.com or DM us with a pre-recorded voice message

Sep 15, 2024 • 47min
BHE 191 - INSTINCT ZONE LORE
what it do babyyy:
https://www.enneagrammer.com/instinct-zones
— (1:27) We watched Bone Tomahawk
— (5:06) Instinct Zone updates / Emeka’s 1-3 flame burnout
— (10:09) The Play Zones and nailing down long term relationship
— (15:23) Stackings within the stackings made a comeback / syn vs contra zone stems
— (22:05) The weirdness of 3-1 fetish
— (24:20) 3-2 containment and ‘health’
— (28:23) What’s SX2-3 really about?
— (36:31) Stacking vs Zone Stems
— (43:28) Reptilian SP3-1
Donate to support the show:
venmo - @bighormone
https://paypal.me/bighormone
The Pain of the Blindspot seminar with John & Alexandra
https://www.theenneagramschool.com/painoftheblindspot
Find out what flavor of toxic you are 9w19w88w99w81w99w89w16w76w79w19w86w59w89w19w86w76w79w8
https://www.enneagrammer.com/
Check out Alexandra’s astrology-enneagram readings and trash tv gossip: https://www.saturnruled9.com
Rediscover the centers of intelligence and object relations with John and Josh’s 6-part class: https://www.theenneagramschool.com/developmental-centers
Only morons haven’t gotten John’s book on the instinctual drives: https://www.amazon.com/dp/0578784971/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_fabc_VZ3VZVEG0M1RY42AWN2T
You’re a bread person if you’ve only bought DG’s Trifix Booklet once: https://www.enneagrammer.com/store/trifix-venn-booklet-david-gray
Call the nota4 hotline with your comments at (323) 696-0647. Or you can also email bhepodcast@gmail.com or DM us with a pre-recorded voice message
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