Becoming Me

Episode 94          At some point of the interior journey we will feel disconnected with the outside world and this can be scary if we don’t understand why it’s happening or how to respond.In this episode I explain why this sense of disconnection happens at specific seasons of the interior journey and what practical action we can take to nurture and protect our emerging interior life.This episode will be particularly helpful for those of you who need more than the usual advice about prayer as you enter deeper waters of the interior life.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:00) - Introduction(00:04:37) - Stages of the Interior Journey(00:07:27) - Why do we experience disconnection?(00:08:17) - 1. Fragmentation & Realignment(00:11:48) - 2. Unlearning & Changing(00:20:25) - Carving Out Silence & Solitude(00:38:13) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHave you experienced this sense of disconnect between your inner and outer lives before? How have you responded to nurture and protect your interior journey?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 93          Loneliness is a universal experience, regardless of whether you are single or married (or in religious life/ordained)!What’s at the root of our loneliness? How do we build a foundation towards having secure attachment with others and with God?Tune in to this episode to hear me talk about how no-one, not even God, can replace a secure relationship with our SELF.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:33) - Introduction(00:02:04) - Question1: Singlehood and Contentment(00:03:23) - Question 2: MyExperience with Earned Security(00:05:27) - Safe Companionship(00:10:37) - Loneliness(00:15:21) - Relationships can't Fix our Woundedness and Traumas(00:22:07) - Secure Attachment(00:27:32) - My Experience with Secure and Safe Attachment(00:30:17) - Building on our own Relationship with God First(00:33:02) - Being in Solitue to Enjoy Togetherness(00:34:09) - Self-Alienation(00:46:09) - Balancing the Tension(00:54:43) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHave you experienced loneliness recently? If you are unsure, think about some signs which point towards feelings of loneliness? In that moment, were you able to attune to yourself? What is one way in which you can be more secure with yourself?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 92          In order to love authentically, we need to have a healthy sense of who we are as a separate SELF.In this episode I talk about why being enmeshed or too detached in our relationships both prevent us from becoming more fully alive and authentically loving.I also address a question about the particular challenge of being an Asian/Chinese Catholic making this interior journey of integration.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:24) - Introduction(00:02:52) - Getting into the Specifics(00:04:10) - What is the Interior Journey About?(00:05:54) - Spiritually Fruitful(00:08:01) - Enmeshment & Detachment(00:11:52) - Lacking Intimacy(00:13:58) - Differentiation(00:18:22) - Dysfunctions(00:25:03) - Making our own Journey(00:26:54) - There is no Community without Solitude(00:33:39) - The Other and The Self(00:35:11) - Questions(00:42:11) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTWhere on the spectrum do you lie? Do you lie closer to enmeshment or detachment? Think about some of the ways in which you have experienced enmeshment or detachment in your close relationships. Think of one way in which you can start your journey to stop these patterns. It doesn't have to be something big. Any step in the right direction is progress.Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 91          There’s a world of difference between shutting down our emotions and ignoring our needs to “do the right thing” and being genuinely, authentically loving with our whole being.In this episode I explain this distinction and share with very concrete experience how differently these two frameworks operate and how only one of them sets us free to become more alive and more truly loving.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:25) - Introduction(00:02:05) - What's the Difference?(00:07:57) - The Framework we Operate under(00:09:44) - Loving Freely(00:12:55) - Looking at Freedom in the Act Versus the Act Itself(00:16:49) - Shifting the Paradigm(00:18:58) - Familial Scripts(00:30:21) - Being Authentically Loving(00:41:20) - How do I Honour this "Paradox" in me?(00:43:24) - Question #1(00:45:15) - Question #2(00:55:35) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTThink about a recent episode in which you felt pushed or triggered. What was your response? Was your response one that was reactive towards your fears and anxieties? Or did you give yourself the space to understand your emotions? Perhaps you acted out of your default scripts, thinking it was the right thing to do. Sit with this memory and try and recognise if there were any scripts at play.Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 90        Did you know your lack of a good relationship with your own BODY prevents you from being able to TRUST God, your Self or others?When we try to discipline our body without first having a loving relationship with it, we deepen the emotional fracture within our being.In this episode I share how God led me to reconsider my relationship with my body and learn to be able to trust Him more fully.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:33) - Introduction(00:03:18) - Spirituality is Relationship with God(00:05:13) - The Relationship with our Bodies(00:10:00) - Attuning to the Needs of your Body: What Works for You(00:15:24) - The Irony of the Body(00:19:08) - The Body Never Lies(00:23:35) - Honouring our Design(00:27:10) - Building a Relationship with our Bodies(00:36:58) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTWhat is your relationship with our body like? Do you trust your body? Do you like your body? Perhaps you see it as a liability and have constantly tried to push past its 'weaknesses'. What about your body do dislike? Take some time to sit with yourself. Hold yourself gently.Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 89      What’s the difference between controlling our emotions and regulating them? We often try to control our emotions in order to “be loving” but by doing so we actually make it harder for us to make authentic connections.In this episode I share my experience on the difference between controlling my emotions and learning to regulate by attuning to them and the impact this has on my ability to be a safer space for myself and others.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube. Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:17) - Introduction(00:02:43) - Big (Negative) Emotions(00:08:40) - Allowing ourselves to Feel(00:11:14) - Attuning to our Emotions(00:19:11) - Our Younger Emotions(00:26:20) - The Core Self(00:29:36) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTThink about a time where you felt upset, sad or angry. Did you try to control your emotions? Were you able to let yourself feel those emotions? Try and come up with one way in which you can better attune to yourself and your emotions.Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 88      Illness. Burn out. Relationships breaking down. Death. Losing a job. Giving birth. These are some of life’s interruptions that can throw us off our carefully planned lives and make us feel destabilised.Our instinct is usually to over-function and overcome these interruptions, but as INTERIOR PILGRIMS we have the option of seeing these interruptions as God’s invitation for us to do the REAL work of growing in freedom, restoration and love.In this episode I talk about how life’s interruptions can be a painful grace we need to lean into instead of fight off.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:32) - Introduction(00:01:36) - What Interruptions have you Experienced?(00:05:32) - Questioning my Fundamentals(00:06:59) - The Hidden Stories(00:08:23) - What's the Good News?(00:11:12) - Doubling Down or Freezing(00:12:05) - Reinforcing our Scripts(00:20:25) - Invitation to Surrender(00:27:48) - Interior Integration(00:30:53) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHave you experienced interruptions in your life or in your interior journey? Reflect on one instance. How did you feel? What was your response? Think about how your scripts played a part in your response. Make some space for yourself and picture yourself surrendering all your current and even past interruptions.Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 87      In the interior journey it's not how slow or fast you are but the quality of the energy and presence you embody that shows how much space is within you. Slowing down is a way of cultivating that SPACE within us that enables us to exercise our freedom to choose our responses.For many of us addicted to busyness, preoccupation and speed, we may not be able to slow down with our own efforts. Even when we think we have slowed down, in reality we are not slowing down nearly enough. Listen to my sharing in this episode on how we can move towards slowing down and becoming more free.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:32) - Introduction(00:03:32) - Slowing Down(00:11:41) - Not Feeling Safe(00:17:31) - Hiding Behind Our Personas(00:19:59) - Stopping When We Finally Break(00:27:03) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTAre you constantly busying yourself and ignoring the boundaries that should be set? Do you live a life of space? Think about why you constantly busy yourself and what you can do to live more intentionally, and to make more space for yourself.Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 86      How well do you know yourself? The more specific and concrete we can get about knowing the way we are uniquely created and how to be aligned with our design, the freer and more confident we become in making our journey and in taking up the unique mission God created us to do.In this episode I share some real life examples of individuals who have developed greater freedom and confidence because they gotten a lot more specific in their self-knowledge.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:35) - Introduction(00:02:52) - Not Fitting In(00:11:02) - Finding Our Fit(00:11:21) - 1. Being Concrete about your Scripts(00:15:34) - 2. What are our Strengths and Specific Gifts?(00:23:22) - Self-Knowlegde: Extroversion and Intraversion(00:33:19) - Self-Knowlegde and Self-Acceptance(00:36:09) - Aligning our Gifts with where we are(00:43:02) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTDo you feel like you there is a mismatch between your strengths and where you are in liffe? If you are not aware of what your strengths might be at this moment, sit with yourself and think about what activity at work, or at home that has given you immense joy.Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 85      We are often used to getting results in many areas of life by working harder, pushing past our limits and bypassing our weaknesses. Most of us try to approach our spiritual and interior lives in the same way when we begin to take our interior journey seriously.Yet these methods that we default to actually backfire when we try to use them to grow in integration and authenticity and wholeness in Christ. In this episode I discuss why that is the case. This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:30) - Introduction(00:03:45) - Our Inner Critic(00:08:09) - Being Stuck and Regressing(00:11:42) - Pondering what's beneath our Addictive Behaviours(00:21:07) - Knowing when it is Time to Receive(00:26:05) - Spiritual Ascetism(00:29:40) - Putting Ascetism in Context(00:33:29) - How much Slack should I be giving Myself?(00:36:28) - Try Softer(00:38:50) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHave you ever found yourself stuck or regressing at some point in your interior journey?If this has happened to you before, have you tried to push through with zeal to make sure you're moving forward at all costs? Sometimes, we need to able to take a step back and fall into rest. We need to learn to receive.Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.