This Is Actually Happening

A woman, who ignores her instincts, enters a marriage that soon spirals into betrayal and control. When the truth finally comes to light, she must choose between devastation and the chance to reclaim her life. Today’s episode featured Amy Irvine. If you’d like to reach out to Amy, you can email her at pinkishfx@gmail.com. You can find Amy on social media @pinkish_7 and/or @pinkish_77 on Instagram A special thanks to Todd Renenbohm of the Bunny Hugs & Mental Health Podcast for referring Amy to us. Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits, Aviva Lipkowitz Content/Trigger Warnings: Child emotional abuse and neglect, Body shaming and eating-related control, Sexual coercion and marital rape, Drugging and sexual assault, Domestic violence and attempted strangulation, Psychological and emotional manipulation, Infidelity and betrayal, Threat to animals, Discussion of multiple victims of sexual assault, Trauma recovery and PTSD, explicit language Social Media:Instagram: @actuallyhappeningTwitter: @TIAHPodcast Website: thisisactuallyhappening.com Website for Andrew Waits: andrdewwaits.comWebsite for Aviva Lipkowitz: avivalipkowitz.com Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon: patreon.com/happening Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at wondery.com/plus Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop.  Transcripts: Full transcripts of each episode are now available on the website, thisisactuallyhappening.com Intro Music: “Sleep Paralysis” - Scott VelasquezMusic Bed: Union Flow ServicesIf you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources: National Suicide and Crisis Lifeline: Text or Call 988 National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Sean Hemeon, a memoirist and former drug dealer, shares his gripping journey from addiction to recovery. He recounts the darker sides of his life as a federal informant, the harrowing experience of losing a buyer to overdose, and how that shaped his path to finding redemption. His story reveals the complexities of growing up queer in a strict Mormon environment, grappling with trauma, and eventually embracing sobriety. Through introspection and writing, he finds healing and reconnects with his true self and family.

When a sudden car crash shatters her world, a woman’s grief and struggle to keep living leads her to an unexpected rebirth of love.Today’s episode featured Polly Vickery. If you’d like to contact Polly, you can email her at pollyvickery81@gmail.com. Polly is on Instagram and Facebook @PollyVickery    Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits, Ellen (Elly) Westberg, Aviva LipkowitzContent/Trigger Warnings: Child death, Spousal death, Graphic accident details, Medical trauma, Grief and bereavement, Suicidal ideation, Survivor’s guilt, Anxiety/PTSD, explicit languageSocial Media:Instagram: @actuallyhappeningTwitter: @TIAHPodcast Website: thisisactuallyhappening.com Website for Andrew Waits: andrdewwaits.comWebsite for Aviva Lipkowitz: avivalipkowitz.comWebsite for Ellen Westberg: shedatespodcast.com Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon: patreon.com/happening Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at wondery.com/plus Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop.  Transcripts: Full transcripts of each episode are now available on the website, thisisactuallyhappening.com Intro Music: “Sleep Paralysis” - Scott VelasquezMusic Bed: Cylinder Four  ServicesIf you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources: National Suicide and Crisis Lifeline: Text or Call 988 National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Brenda Coffee, author of the gripping memoir MAYA BLUE: A Memoir of Survival, shares her harrowing tale of love and survival after the death of her husband. She recounts being captured in Guatemala, navigating a perilous escape from the jungle, and the profound impact of trauma on her life. As she reflects on her journey, Brenda emphasizes the power of resilience and healing, highlighting her experiences with self-hypnosis and group therapy. Her story is a striking blend of adventure and personal growth that inspires listeners to embrace their inner strength.

While hunting in the Canadian wilderness, a man accidentally comes between a grizzly bear cub and its mother, and a terrifying fight for his life ensues that will change him forever.Today we bring you the final episode of our annual 5-week summer rebroadcast series. We will return with all new episodes starting next Tuesday, September 16, 2025 . Today’s rebroadcast episode “What if you were mauled by a grizzly bear?” originally aired as episode 262 on January 24, 2023.   Today's episode featured Jeremy Evans. You can find many more details about Jeremy and this story in his incredible memoir, 'Mauled: Lessons Learned from a Grizzly Bear Attack', published by Rocky Mountain Books. To contact Jeremy you can reach out to his Publicist at genevieve@rmbooks.com or contact Jeremy directly at Grizzlydude01@gmail.com Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits Content/Trigger Warnings: very graphic bodily injury, graphic description of blood and medical situations, attempted suicide, violence inflicted on a child, explicit language Social Media:Instagram: @actuallyhappeningTwitter: @TIAHPodcast Website: thisisactuallyhappening.com Website for Andrew Waits: andrdewwaits.com Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon: patreon.com/happening Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at wondery.com/plus Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop.  Transcripts: Full transcripts of each episode are now available on the website, thisisactuallyhappening.com Intro Music: “Sleep Paralysis” - Scott VelasquezMusic Bed: “Union Flow” – Spuntic ServicesIf you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources: National Suicide and Crisis Lifeline: Text or Call 988 National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Emily Caldwell, an adventurous traveler and mental health advocate, shares her vivid tale of extreme sleep deprivation during a trip to Tanzania. She discusses the overwhelming chaos and disorientation that comes with 120 hours without sleep, alongside the panic attacks that led her to confront her trauma and anxiety. Emily reflects on the transformative power of her travels and how they shaped her resilience in the face of mental health struggles, offering insights into her journey of healing and self-discovery.

Azzah Ahmad shares her compelling story of navigating trauma and self-expression in a strict Muslim, South Asian family. She discusses the emotional struggle of meeting societal expectations and the journey toward self-acceptance. Azzah reflects on the challenges of identity and personal worth, especially during her formative years. She also touches on the impact of beauty standards and the importance of overcoming shame to embrace one's true self. Follow her inspiring journey on Instagram @Lifeazziknowit.

Katherine McElhinney shares her harrowing journey from a fractured family to the confines of Scientology. After her father's passing, she grapples with grief and loneliness before signing a billion-year contract. Katherine reveals the emotional turmoil and manipulative tactics she faced while in the Sea Org, and the struggles of reintegration afterward. Her candid reflections on trauma, depression, and the quest for healing provide a powerful insight into the personal costs of high-control environments.

Guest John Killacky, a former Vermont politician, artist, and disability advocate, shares his powerful journey of identity and resilience. He reflects on growing up queer in the 1960s and the impact of the AIDS crisis on his life. After waking up from surgery unable to move, he discusses his battle with quadriplegia and the challenges of finding purpose through art. Killacky also highlights the importance of community and inclusivity for marginalized groups, weaving personal stories with broader societal themes.

Amanda Eller, a physical therapist and yoga instructor from Maui, recounts her harrowing experience of survival after being lost in the Makawao Forest for 17 days. She reflects on her tumultuous childhood and struggles with self-image, which fueled her journey towards holistic living and personal growth. As she navigated the wilderness, she faced physical and emotional turmoil, ultimately finding peace and resilience amid fear. Her story emphasizes the transformative power of hope, intuition, and the interconnectedness of life through adversity.