In this episode of Narcissist Apocalypse, Julia shares her story of marrying a scary psychological abuser. Julia fell for her husband immediately. He was charismatic, a protector, great with children, and had aspirations to be a fireman. Julia's husband checked all of her boxes. He was the man of her dreams. But unfortunately for Julia, her husband slowly morphed from someone she trusted to someone she feared. It's a story of caretaking, fear , feeling alien, being good enough, rage, double standards, gaslighting, infidelity, being voiceless, self esteem, patriarchal systems, generational trauma, nitpicking, body issues, mixed messages , cognitive dissonance, intimidation, security, safety, child self harm, suicidal ideation, guilt, trauma, and feelings.*** CONTENT WARNING - This episode has graphic descriptions of child self harm, physical intimidation, and strong language. ***If you want to be a guest on our survivor story podcast, please click here or send us an email at narcissistapocalypse@gmail.comTo help out our podcast, please fill out our listener survey, click here.PODCAST RECOMMENDATIONS:Perfect Prey With Dr. Christine Cocchiola | Click HereThe Covert Narcissism Podcast | Click HereSomething Was Wrong | Click HereWhen Dating Hurts Podcast | Click HereIf you or someone you know are experiencing abuse, you are not alone. DomesticShelters.org offers an extensive library of articles and resources that can help you make sense of what you're experiencing, connect you with local resources and find ways to heal and move forward. Visit www.domesticshelters.org to access this free resource. If you need help moving due to domestic violence, Shelter Movers may be able to help you. They operate by referral. Clients may be referred by any person of authority (social worker, doctor, police, crisis counselor, teacher, etc.) or public agency (shelter, hospital, school, workplace, place of worship, sexual assault centre, etc.). To reach them, click here. Join our new Community Social Network at https://community.narcissistapocalypse.com/Join our Instagram Channel at https://www.instagram.com/narcissistapocalypseJoin our Youtube Channel at https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCpTIgjTqVJa4caNWMIAJllA Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices