

System Speak: Complex Trauma and Dissociative Disorders
Emma Sunshaw
Diagnosed with Complex Trauma and a Dissociative Disorder, Emma and her system share what they learn along the way about complex trauma, dissociation (CPTSD, OSDD, DID, Dissociative Identity Disorder (Multiple Personality), etc.), and mental health. Educational, supportive, inclusive, and inspiring, System Speak documents her healing journey through the best and worst of life in recovery through insights, conversations, and collaborations.
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Nov 27, 2025 • 49min
IndigeQueer
The podcast explores the Canoe Journey, emphasizing its cultural significance and the importance of reclaiming indigenous waters. Emma discusses canoe family structures, hosting rituals, and the spiritual connection to nature. The conversation highlights the nuances of the Two-Spirit identity, its historical misuse, and the emergence of the term 'indigiqueer.' Emma shares insights on communal meals, camp life, and the significance of drumming in connecting with heritage, weaving together themes of identity, healing, and community support.

Nov 24, 2025 • 1h 4min
Guest: Sandra Simpson
In this insightful conversation, Sandra Simpson, a passionate advocate living with dissociative identity disorder, delves into the challenges and triumphs of her journey. She shares her experiences with misdiagnosis and child sex trafficking and highlights the important work of the Lived Experience Advisory Panel at McLean Hospital. Sandra discusses her advocacy goals, the innovative PhotoVoice project, and the powerful impact of lived-experience research. They also explore the balance of public vulnerability, family safety, and the transformative nature of learning about neuroplasticity.

Nov 20, 2025 • 43min
Unconquerable
We explain about euphoric recall.Our website is HERE: System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. Once you are in, you can use a non-Apple device or non-safari browser to join groups HERE. Once you are set up, then the website and app work on any device just fine. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, movie groups, social events, and classes. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse. Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience. Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity. While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice. Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you. Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency. This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.
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Nov 17, 2025 • 50min
Taylor’s Massage
Join a journey through the emotional landscape of receiving a massage for the first time. Listen in as Emma shares her initial reluctance and the careful planning that led to her discovery of a trauma-informed therapist. Experience the tension of consent and choice, along with the profound relief felt during the session. From emotional releases to the unexpected intimacy of hand massage, each moment unveils the complex relationship with touch and healing. The exploration culminates in reflections on physical and emotional well-being.

Nov 13, 2025 • 40min
Emails
We read and respond to listener emails.Resources referenced:The Unique and Its Property (Max Stirner)Lucretius' poem De Rerum Natura"Living for Pleasure: An Epicurean Guide to Life" by Emily A. Austin (Oxford University Press, 2022) for an easy textbook-esque introduction"A Few Days in Athens" by Frances Wright (1822)Our website is HERE: System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. Once you are in, you can use a non-Apple device or non-safari browser to join groups HERE. Once you are set up, then the website and app work on any device just fine. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, movie groups, social events, and classes. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse. Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience. Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity. While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice. Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you. Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency. This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.
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Nov 10, 2025 • 43min
Not the Price, Chapter 5
We read and respond to chapter 5 of Not the Price of Admission by Laura Brown.Our website is HERE: System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. Once you are in, you can use a non-Apple device or non-safari browser to join groups HERE. Once you are set up, then the website and app work on any device just fine. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, movie groups, social events, and classes. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse. Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience. Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity. While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice. Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you. Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency. This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.
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Nov 6, 2025 • 48min
Annihilation Anxiety
We jump right into searching about "annihilation anxiety" after the previous podcast interview.Referenced links in order of finding them:Chicago AnalysisEncyclopediaMoral Injury LayerJournal ArticleOur website is HERE: System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. Once you are in, you can use a non-Apple device or non-safari browser to join groups HERE. Once you are set up, then the website and app work on any device just fine. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, movie groups, social events, and classes. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse. Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience. Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity. While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice. Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you. Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency. This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.
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Nov 3, 2025 • 59min
Guest: Doris D'Hooghe
Doris D'Hooghe, an experienced Belgian psychotraumatologist and founder of the Trauma Center in Belgium, shares valuable insights on attachment and trauma. She discusses how intergenerational trauma impacts parenting and how unresolved issues distort attachment relationships. Doris highlights the concept of unseen attachment trauma and the neurologic effects of relational trauma. She also emphasizes the importance of integrating trauma healing with empowerment and views resilience as an innate quality that helps individuals recover and thrive.

Oct 30, 2025 • 33min
Emails: Healing Em, Healing Me
We read and respond to a listener email.We do talk about protecting inside Littles and Babies. Note: For clarity, the part of us referenced is “Em” who used to be our very depressed part (overwhelmed mom) and the community person we saw in a zoomies was “M”.Our website is HERE: System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. Once you are in, you can use a non-Apple device or non-safari browser to join groups HERE. Once you are set up, then the website and app work on any device just fine. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, movie groups, social events, and classes. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse. Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience. Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity. While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice. Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you. Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency. This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.
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Oct 27, 2025 • 29min
ReEmpower-ing
We share a therapy update about power dynamics, exploitation, colonization, and taking back our own power.Our website is HERE: System Speak Podcast.You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. Once you are in, you can use a non-Apple device or non-safari browser to join groups HERE. Once you are set up, then the website and app work on any device just fine. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, movie groups, social events, and classes. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse. Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience. Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity. While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice. Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you. Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency. This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.
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