
Back from the Abyss: Psychiatry in Stories
How do we find a way out of the darkest depths of despair? Psychiatrist Dr. Craig Heacock hosts a deep dive into powerfully moving stories of hope and healing, as well as topical explorations of psychopharmacology, psychotherapy, and psychedelics.
Latest episodes

May 31, 2024 • 1h 1min
Fishbowl 5
Chris and Craig go meta to deconstruct season 5, explore the art of storytelling and music selection, and answer listener questions.BFTA on IG @backfromtheabysspodcasthttps://www.instagram.com/backfromtheabysspodcast/BFTA/ Dr. Hhttps://www.craigheacockmd.com/podcast-page/

May 16, 2024 • 54min
When Mom is mentally ill-- A story of resilience
Christina grew up with a tumultuous and mentally ill mother, an older brother who decompensated into psychosis and frightening aggression, and just one healthy family member, her father. Dr. H and Christina explore both the wounding of having a desperately ill parent, as well as the profound gift of having another parent able to provide love and support. Christina suffered terribly from these maternal wounds, but she was also able to finally emerge as a healthy, grateful, wise, and deeply caring adult….initially drawn to nursing, she eventually transitioned into working as a psychiatric nurse practitioner.This story is in two parts— first Christina shares her moving story, then she and Dr. H go meta and explore the behind the scenes preparation for this episode. Two of the themes that emerge in this latter part are storytelling as integration, and vulnerability as part of healing. Christina beautifully describes how the process of pulling her story together and unearthing these often brutal memories allowed her to find a deeper sense of peace, acceptance, and self-affirmation.BFTA on IG @backfromtheabysspodcasthttps://www.instagram.com/backfromtheabysspodcast/BFTA/ Dr. Hhttps://www.craigheacockmd.com/podcast-page/

May 3, 2024 • 49min
A Psychiatrist Goes to War
Dr. Russell Carr was a career Navy psychiatrist for 20 years and served in Iraq, where today’s story begins. This is a story of a healer, then a terrible wounding, then the healer trying to find his way amidst the chaos of war. This story is about a rite of passage, one that not every psychiatrist faces, but most do at some point-- that of losing the first patient to suicide, then trying to find the strength to move forward.Dr. Russell CarrA Psychiatrist Returns from War-- on Substackhttps://russellcarr.substack.com/BFTA on IG @backfromtheabysspodcasthttps://www.instagram.com/backfromtheabysspodcast/BFTA/ Dr. Hhttps://www.craigheacockmd.com/podcast-page/

Apr 19, 2024 • 57min
My dog saved my life-- Understanding the story of depression
A huge problem with current psychiatric diagnosis is that it often lumps completely unrelated things under the same vast and vague tent, such as with the diagnosis of "Major Depressive Disorder". Here Craig sits down with his patient Rebecca to try to make sense of her complex early onset depression and how it played out via addiction, anorexia, and pathological caretaking and how she was finally able find the grace and compassion to prioritize care for herself.Bringing Therapy into Med Management-- An intensive psychotherapy training in Colorado with Dr. Hhttps://www.craigheacockmd.com/training/BFTA on IG @backfromtheabysspodcasthttps://www.instagram.com/backfromtheabysspodcast/BFTA/ Dr. Hhttps://www.craigheacockmd.com/podcast-page/

Apr 5, 2024 • 56min
Psychoanalysis, Dissociation, MDMA and What Lies Beneath
Here Dr. H sites down with Jenny, a psychoanalyst who shares her moving, then horrifying, then eventually cathartic tale of plumbing the depths of her traumatized psyche, first with years of psychoanalysis, then with five MDMA-assisted therapy sessions. This is a story of numbing and forgetting, then re-opening and remembering...of finding a way to make sense of a life of protective dissociation.Bringing Therapy into Med Management-- An intensive psychotherapy training in Colorado with Dr. Hhttps://www.craigheacockmd.com/training/BFTA on IG @backfromtheabysspodcasthttps://www.instagram.com/backfromtheabysspodcast/BFTA/ Dr. Hhttps://www.craigheacockmd.com/podcast-page/

Mar 22, 2024 • 29min
What I'm thinking about now-- MDMA, Sleep Meds, Motivation, Bipolar vs Borderline, and more
In this solo episode Craig shares his current thoughts on MDMA medicalization, sleep meds, ADD, motivation vs self-discipline, benzos, how long to stay on psych meds, a change and a proposed addition to his top 10 med list, borderline vs bipolar, and marriage.Bringing Therapy into Med Management-- An intensive training with Dr. Hhttps://www.craigheacockmd.com/training/BFTA on IG @backfromtheabysspodcasthttps://www.instagram.com/backfromtheabysspodcast/BFTA/ Dr. Hhttps://www.craigheacockmd.com/podcast-page/

Mar 8, 2024 • 1h 26min
Eating Disorders, Body Image, and Building an Alliance-- A Conversation with Dr. Jennifer Gaudiani
Dr. Jennifer Gaudiani, a leading expert on eating disorders and founder of the Gaudiani Clinic, discusses the nuanced challenges of treating these complex conditions. She delves into the origins of eating disorders, emphasizing cultural and psychological factors, while also addressing the struggle of anosognosia in patients. The conversation highlights the sensitivity required in discussions around body image and weight, critiques bariatric surgery, and advocates for a compassionate, weight-neutral approach to treatment. Lastly, she explores the transformative journey from restrictive eating to intuitive practices.

Feb 23, 2024 • 59min
Sex, Drugs, and Neglect-- Self-Destruction and the Repetition Compulsion
Explore the intricacies of repetition compulsion, where unresolved childhood traumas lead to self-destructive patterns. Hear Katey’s gripping story of battling through emotional neglect and toxic relationships, embodying a tug-of-war between her healthier self and old habits. Discover the profound impact of therapy as a tool for breaking cycles of addiction and unhealthy dynamics. The discussion navigates resilience amidst chaos, emphasizing the journey toward authenticity and the healing power that comes from making different choices.

Feb 9, 2024 • 1h 1min
Psychiatry in the ER
The rising tide of psychiatric emergencies in the US most commonly ends up in the emergency room, where psychiatrists are almost never found and the brunt of the heavy lifting falls on emergency medicine physicians. Here Dr. H sits down with Dr. Treve Henwood, an emergency med physician and host of the Rural EM podcast to explore the often overwhelming challenges inherent in trying to effectively manage and treat these psychiatric crises.BFTA on IG @backfromtheabysspodcasthttps://www.instagram.com/backfromtheabysspodcast/BFTA/ Dr. Hhttps://www.craigheacockmd.com/podcast-page/

Jan 26, 2024 • 1h 23min
At the Crossroads of Psychiatry, Psychedelics and Spirituality--- Dr. H on the Radically Genuine Podcast
Roger McFillin, a psychologist and host of the Radically Genuine Podcast, digs deep into the complexities of modern psychiatry. He and Dr. H critique the flawed structure of psychiatric diagnoses and the perils of medications without informed consent. They highlight the transformative potential of psychedelics like ketamine for trauma healing. The duo emphasizes a holistic approach, urging a move beyond mere medication to incorporate therapy and personal growth in mental health care.