
In Search of Tarot
Utilizing the cards to examine new questions, question any answers, and reimagine the possibilities of our lives.
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Mar 30, 2023 • 1h 10min
The Body as a Site of Divination with Madison Nees, Guest Hosted by Jonathan Koe
Today we are thrilled to welcome our first guest host, Jonathan Koe, who shares a highly charged and vulnerable conversation with their teacher and friend Madison Nees.
Jonathan, who first appeared on In Search of Tarot back in April of 2022, is a queer mystic who currently lives in Brooklyn, NY, land of the Lenape people. Fluent in the language of music, astrology, tarot, energy work, statistics, and the Akashic perspective, Jonathan aims to empower the collective through compassionate discernment, to nurture communities of passionate seekers, and to expand our sense of interconnectedness beyond the myths of binary-thinking and not-enoughness. You can follow Jonathan's contemplations and conversations with friends (including Nick and Madison) on their podcast, Healing The Spirit.
Originally from Tulsa, Oklahoma, Madison Nees currently lives and practices on Kumeyaay land (also known as San Diego). Madison is a queer artist, human, guide, and facilitator who believes in a non-expert model that empowers the individual and collective to tap into their own wisdom rather than as a facilitator having the answers. This is Radical Aliveness.
When Madison began their own journey, they did not understand that the pull to Somatics was a call of their ancestors. They were being pulled to embody all the gifts their mother could not and ultimately lost her life suppressing. Madison was being pulled to feel the things their Grandmother had no language for.
Madison’s body knew the language however, and it spoke in illness, pains, aches and rage. During this process, Madison discovered gifts hidden beneath these repressed emotions. These gifts were the sensations, intuition and creativity of their lineage. When Madison stopped trying to push these parts away, they wondered what would happen if they let them grow. They grew into Madison’s practice today.
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Mar 23, 2023 • 56min
The History (Mystery) of the Tarot with Sanyu Estelle
Sanyu Estelle is the author of "The History (Mystery) of the Tarot," the opening chapter of Tarot for Pregnancy by Brittany Carmona-Holt. Sanyu is a Claircognizant ("clear knowing") Soothsayer ("truth teller") that is also known as "The Word Witch" because of her deep love for word origins (etymology) and word culture (philology). These natural inclinations are bolstered by an 11+ year practice of Taoism, as well as a 10+ year relationship with Ifa, the indigenous tradition of the Yoruba people of now-Nigeria. Sanyu is known for her straightforward card reading style and her way with words via writing, speaking and singing. A "1st generationish" US-American of Ugandan and Belizean descent, Sanyu was born, bred and buttered in Los Angeles on land traditionally stewarded by the Tongva. Many dream up the future, but it belongs to their descendants. Thus, Sanyu is the best thing that came out of her Colonizer’s lineage. She uses their/her own ancestry to denounce their indoctrination into the invention of Whiteness through colonization. They are lucky to have her and they ensured not only that she is, but what she is.
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Mar 16, 2023 • 58min
Worldbuilding with Ari Felix
Ari Felix is a multidisciplinary philosopher and mystic dedicated to living in veneration of the Planetary Ancestors (including the Earth). Their work is about emotional transmutation, dreaming new worlds, and building those worlds through visionary power and spiritual freedom. They have worked with spiritual practitioners, movement leaders, healers, creators, and artists of all kinds for over a decade.
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Mar 9, 2023 • 51min
The Sacred Web Tarot
Our guests today are Jannie Bui Brown and James W. Brown IV, a mother and son team who authored and illustrated the fantastic new Tarot deck: The Sacred Web Tarot. Jannie is an artist, yoga teacher, devoted mother of three and partner in life with her beloved. She considers herself to be a life-long student of all things spiritual and liberating and finds herself most at home on a trail by a stream, under a tree or on a couch reading a good book. She designs healing jewelry that she sells so that she can donate her profits to beautiful non-profit organizations. When not dwelling on the mystical nature of life, Jannie loves to ride her bike, hike, write, dance, practice yoga, listen to music and cook delicious food for her family and friends. James is an artist whose mediums range from film making to digital drawing. He is the founder of the small production company Spontaneous Productions and has spent the last few years drawing this deck, reading tarot, writing scripts, and creating original comic content.
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Mar 2, 2023 • 1h 8min
Living Systems with Leah Garza
Many worlds exist in this one world. In one world, Leah Garza is a veteran teacher and education organizer. She has spent nearly two decades in social justice movement spaces, working toward equitable change in public education. She earned her masters degrees in education and depth psychology and is currently working on a Phd in community, liberation, indigenous, and eco psychologies. In another world, Leah is a shapeshifter. The trials incurred personally and collectively, through the Trump administration and later the pandemic and uprisings, made her a seeker. Leah learned to engage her ability to shapeshift as she began to ask questions of her purpose in this lifetime. Leah is a practitioner of the Akashic records, and offers radical healing work through the lenses of decoloniality and relational ways of being to subvert the colonial agenda.
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Feb 23, 2023 • 58min
Sound, Art and Magic with zaneta sykes
Drawing upon a deep connection to the body, memory, spirit, and the land, zaneta's (they/them) art is a process of remembering our interconnectedness or the Filipinx term, kapwa. zaneta currently lives and creates on Lenni Lenape territory (Brooklyn), offering community listening rituals, as well as listening and sound workshops in spaces such as the Brooklyn Museum and online. In 2020, their project, Sacred Seasons, won the Brooklyn Arts Fund grant from the Brooklyn Arts Council and was co-presented with the New Women Space. Their field recording work has taken them throughout the contiguous United States and most weeks they can be found hiking and solo camping throughout the Catskills and Adirondack regions. as a community spiritual worker and host of the Art Witch podcast, zaneta is connected to a vibrant community of queer, multiracial creatixes and healers, and their podcast empowers listeners around the world to make their art and find liberatory expression.
Original Air Date: March 29, 2021
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Jan 31, 2023 • 6min
BONUS: Breaking Patterns
The places where our Tarot systems fail are the places where we get to enter the chat!
This is a recorded reading of Nick's Mystic Missive newsletter offering. There is a free monthly version and a paid weekly version which is available on Patreon. In addition to these weekly Missives, Patrons receive early access to podcast episodes, discounts on classes and workshops, and invitations to attend monthly Tarot Hangs on Zoom.
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Jan 5, 2023 • 15min
BONUS: Cracking The Chariot in 2023
We're still on a break between seasons but we wanted to share some thoughts on The Chariot, 2023's card of the year, and announce some big plans for the future of the show!
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Dec 22, 2022 • 46min
SHUFFLING THRU HISTORY with Edgar Fabián Frías
Today we're concluding Season Five and our deep dive into Mexican Mysticism and Cartomancy with our very special guest, Edgar Fabián Frías!
Edgar works in installation, photography, video art, sound, sculpture, printed textiles, GIFs, performance, social practice, and community organizing, among other forms. Their art addresses historical legacies and acts of resistance, resiliency, and radical imagination within the context of Indigenous Futurism, spirituality, play, pedagogy, animism, and queer aesthetics. Born in East Los Angeles in 1983, Frías received dual BA degrees in Psychology and Studio Art from UC, Riverside. In 2013, they received an MA in Clinical Mental Health Counseling at Portland State University in Portland, Oregon, with an emphasis on Interpersonal Neurobiology and Somatic Psychotherapy. Frías received their MFA in Art Practice from UC Berkeley in 2022.
Their work has been exhibited internationally, including the Vincent Price Art Museum, Institute of Contemporary Art San Francisco, Berkeley Art Museum and Pacific Film Archive, Oregon Contemporary, MOCA Jacksonville, Project Space Festival Juárez, and ArtBo, among others. Their work has also appeared in Cosmopolitan, Taschen, Bustle, Los Angeles Times, Slate, CVLT Nation, Terremoto, Hyperallergic, and other publications.
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Dec 15, 2022 • 27min
SHUFFLING THRU HISTORY: Mexican Mysticism & Cartomancy II
Today we're diving deep into the origins, history, and lore surrounding la Santa Muerte, a Mexican folk saint who has become a beacon for those on the margin. Although not officially recognized by the Catholic Church, this "Lady Death" as some call her has drummed up enough of a following to warrant the attention of both the FBI and the Vatican!
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