Priya Hutner, a writer and former long-term member of Kashi Ashram, shares her captivating journey through a seemingly serene spiritual community led by Ma Jaya Sati Bhagavati. She reveals how the initial allure of service and enlightenment transitioned into experiences of spiritual abuse, humiliation disguised as ego-death, and strict control over life within the ashram. Priya discusses the impact of daily rituals, the complexity of collective living, and her eventual awakening to the dynamics that shaped her life. Her memoir, "Chasing Nirvana," promises deeper insights into this compelling narrative.