Joshua Abate, a Marine Sergeant, shares his gripping experience of being part of the January 6th Capitol attack. He reflects on the complexities of identity and accountability within the military, questioning his role during the chaos. Abate discusses the psychological aftermath of his actions and the fear of losing his military reputation. He highlights the troubling ties between extremism and the armed forces, examining moral obligations amid political turmoil and the ongoing struggle with personal versus public reality in the wake of the events.