“The spiritual journey does not consist in gaining what a person does not have, but in dissipation of ignorance concerning himself and life, and the growth of understanding which begins with spiritual awakening. To find God is to come to one’s own self.” - Avatar Meher Baba.
No longer the person with its conditioning and history, here now there is only this and the overall feeling is “I don’t mind.” No fear, no push, a great emptiness that is also a rich and all-pervading fullness. Here there is silence, peace and an exquisite sense of joy. Here it feels so light there is no distance, ‘marinating in the self.’ It is as if nothing is happening here yet happening graciously unfolds.
To look back at the dream, the necessary mistaken identity, it seemed like so much happened. Personhood was such psychological suffering. Separation, a feverish, fearful struggle, always restless, dissatisfied, looking outside for love and fulfillment. Now peace, and love reside here.
I have spent thirty years with Avatar Meher Baba in deep devotion. Baba has administered his kiss and his kick, expertly unraveling the ego identity. Longing for the truth and with nothing more to express in this life, I knew I was going to die, not sure if it was the body or the ego, I completely surrendered.
Shortly after, whilst watching Mooji on the net, he pointed, and I said with total conviction, “I am That”. In that recognition I hysterically and uncontrollably laughed for hours. When I could hardly breathe from the laughter and I asked God to help me, the laughter only escalated. The funniest thing, the divine joke was that I knew I had always been that.
I love Meher Baba and Mooji - the brightest reflections of the true self I know. It is quiet here as I experience the bliss and love of the self.
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Transcript of this interview
Interview recorded 7/9/2016
YouTube Video Chapters:
00:00:00 - Introduction to Buddha at the Gas Pump
00:03:34 - Surrendering to the Truth
00:06:44 - The Sentience of the Universe and Implore for a Response
00:10:03 - Nature as a Religion
00:13:38 - Discovering Meher Baba, Marriage, and Spiritual Seeking
00:16:34 - Falling in Love and Visiting Meher Baba
00:19:28 - Overwhelming Love in Baba's Tomb
00:23:19 - The Strange Experience at Baba's Tomb
00:26:18 - The Accumulation of Suffering
00:29:37 - The Desperate Longing for Change
00:33:42 - The Development of the Heart
00:37:32 - Appreciating the Beauty of Life
00:40:49 - Maharishi's Example of Appreciating God's Creation
00:44:08 - Initiation and Transformation
00:47:50 - Revisiting Past Lives
00:51:21 - The Liberation of Guilt and Baggage
00:54:37 - The Transmission of Energy and Awareness
00:58:01 - Divine Encounters and Spirit Guides
01:01:10 - Healing Experiences and Subtle Spheres
01:04:03 - Passing Messages
01:06:32 - The Chariot of Our Life
01:10:00 - Healing Traumatic Experiences
01:13:39 - The Deep Release
01:17:10 - The Experience of Chronic Fatigue and Pain
01:20:44 - Releasing Fear through Shaking
01:24:05 - The Self in All Beings and Nature
01:27:53 - The Paradox of Devotion and Non-Duality
01:31:39 - The Beginning of the Involution
01:35:07 - Final Words and the TRE Practice
01:38:04 - Setting up a Nature Retreat
01:40:24 - Conclusion and Next week's episode
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