At the age of 4 or 5 I was already feeling puzzled and confused by human behavior.
At the age of 11, due to the discovery of the identity of my real mother, I lost respect and credibility for human culture and there arose in me an urge to understand the unreasonable behavior of humans.
The search for truth started in the streets and I went through multiple phases: drugs, alcohol, religion, shamanism, spiritism, politics, revolution and spirituality.
I didn’t find anything there but brief moments of tranquility - nothing permanent and tangible that could be called THE TRUTH - so I decided to find the truth for my self by my self. But I couldn’t, so I surrendered. And there and then I realized there is nothing to understand.
In an instant, the clarity of this truth was there in such an obvious way and interpreted intellectually in this way: the one that perceives, the act of perceiving and what is perceived are one and the same. Separation simply does not exist. There is nothing to understand or to attain. There is only the totality. Life is an indivisible unit.
Transcript of this interview
Interview recorded 12/22/2012
YouTube Video Chapters:
00:00:00 - Introduction and Background of Cesar Teruel
00:03:58 - The Cracking of the Ego Structure
00:07:09 - The Nature of Maturity and Permanent Realization
00:11:17 - The Illusion of Being the Doer
00:15:14 - Tranquility amidst Visa Problems
00:18:45 - Unity and Non-Physical Perception
00:21:50 - Dissolving the Identity
00:25:54 - The Process of Dissolution and Awakening
00:28:38 - A Very Interesting Discussion
00:32:09 - The Importance of Perception in Society
00:37:43 - The Importance of Affection and Connection
00:41:58 - Dissolving the Sense of Separation
00:45:37 - The Consequences of Behavior
00:50:03 - The Meaning of Not Knowing
00:54:07 - The Contracting and Expanding Universe
00:57:39 - Understanding through Undivided Observation
01:02:10 - Stepping out of the Mud Puddle
01:06:13 - The Hidden Truth: The Challenges of Maintaining a Spiritual Persona
01:09:58 - The Fascinating Process of Self-Awareness
01:13:29 - Being a Target of Judgment and Criticism
01:17:27 - The Paradox of Knowing and Not Knowing
01:21:04 - The Indivisible Unit of Electricity
01:24:33 - The Freedom from Identification
01:27:32 - Debunking Myth of Mayan Human Sacrifices
01:30:43 - The Energy Movement within Us
01:34:00 - Finding Freedom from Repression and Control
01:37:07 - The Terrifying Authority
01:40:42 - The Internet as a Source of Information and Rubbish
01:44:38 - The process of refinement and clarity
01:47:41 - Concluding Remarks
01:51:20 - Introduction and Background Music