Mary Costello, author of award-winning novel "Academy Street," reads her story "The Choc-Ice Woman." Topics include unique funeral arrangements, reflections on loss and memories, the impact of books and libraries, betrayals and revelations, reflections on pain and loneliness, reproductive health complications, and a secret on a deathbed.
The protagonist, Francis, grapples with pain, betrayal, and unfulfilled desires while reflecting on the meaning of her life.
Francis contemplates the power of belief and the influence of upbringing on her views of relationships and morality.
Deep dives
The Chalk Ice Woman
Francis journeys in a hearse with Mr. O'Shea, the undertaker, to bring her brother Dennis's remains back home. As they drive, Francis reflects on Dennis's solitary life and her own experiences with pain, betrayal, infertility, and Chlamydia. She ponders her relationship with her husband Frank, who has been unfaithful and infected her with Chlamydia, but she chooses not to confront him. Francis contemplates her own mortality and the meaning of her life, while grappling with the past and the unfulfilled desires associated with it.
The Burden of Silence and Isolation
Francis, a librarian, reveals her frustrations and sorrows, from her unfulfilled desire for children due to infertility to her discovery of her husband's infidelity. She questions her own worth and contemplates the meaning of her existence. Francis finds solace in her memories of her brother Dennis, who lived a solitary life, and wonders about the pain and suffering he may have experienced. She contemplates the power of belief and the role it plays in shaping our perceptions of reality.
Exploring Pain, Betrayal, and Loneliness
Francis's thoughts during the car journey delve into her experiences with pain, betrayal, and loneliness. She reflects on the inadequacy of words like 'unfaithful' and 'infidelity' to capture the true depth of the pain she has endured in her marriage. Francis grapples with her emotions, alternating between moments of anger, despair, and fleeting hope. She contemplates the influence of upbringing and societal expectations on her views of relationships, sex, and morality. Ultimately, she faces the complex question of whether forgiveness and redemption are possible.
The Bittersweet Passage of Time
As the journey continues, Francis contemplates the passing of time and the weight of the years. She reflects on her own aging body and the changes that have occurred within her marriage. Memories of her past, including childhood experiences, her career as a librarian, and the dreams of motherhood that were never realized, resurface throughout the trip. Francis considers the meaning of beauty, love, and acceptance in the context of her own life and relationships, ultimately finding solace in the moments of tenderness and connection she shared with her brother.
Mary Costello reads her story “The Choc-Ice Woman,” which appears in the October 16, 2023, issue of the magazine. Costello is the author of three books of fiction, including “Academy Street,” which won the Irish Novel of the Year Award, and the novel “The River Capture,” which came out in 2019.