Living With Bipolar Depression: Kristen’s Journey of Survival and Healing

What does it mean to survive bipolar depression—and even find hope in it?

In this moving episode of Giving Voice to Depression, poet and mental health advocate Kristen Roedl shares her lived experience with bipolar II disorder and recurring severe depression. She describes how depression has taken her to the edge of survival, yet also pushed her toward creativity, empathy, and resilience.

Through poetry, journaling, and speaking openly about her hospitalizations and struggles, Kristen has found ways to process her pain and remind herself—and others—that depression lies.

Her story is a powerful reminder that while bipolar depression can feel unrelenting, recovery is possible with the right mix of treatment, community support, and self-compassion.

To learn more about Kristin and her poetry: KristinRoedell.wikidot.com

Primary Topics Covered:

• Kristen’s lived experience with bipolar II disorder and severe depression
• What it feels like to be hospitalized for suicidal thoughts
• Why she calls depression both destructive and a “terrible gift”
• How poetry and journaling became healing tools
• Recognizing depression as time-limited, not permanent
• Learning to separate self-worth from productivity
• The role of medication, therapy, and partner support in recovery
• Talking back to depression with affirmations of worth
• Finding resilience through self-compassion and acceptance
• Sharing poetry as a way to connect and inspire hope

Timestamps

00:00 Introduction and episode framing
 01:12 Rethinking what “gift” means in the context of depression
 02:25 Introducing Kristen’s story and lived experience
 03:49 Preparing mentally and emotionally for the interview
 05:02 Realizing that worth is not tied to productivity
 06:19 Depression’s weight and the challenge of survival
 07:30 Coping with panic attacks and daily overwhelm
 08:22 Giving depression space without letting it define you
 09:15 Kristen describes living with bipolar II disorder
10:24 Hospitalization experiences during severe depression
12:40 Using poetry to process emotions and fight back against depression’s lies
13:58 Reading her poem “I Swallowed Hope That Winter”
15:20 Why she calls depression a “terrible gift”
16:41 Using affirmations and journaling to counter depression’s voice
18:10 Art and creativity as acts of resilience and healing
19:55 Key takeaways: self-compassion, rest, and hope
21:15 Closing reflections and resources

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