Emotional abuse and feeling unworthy

During the reunion, the podcast host was subjected to a barrage of emotionally abusive comments from her castmates. She was called names and attacked verbally, with no opportunity for conflict resolution. In the moment, she felt like she deserved it, but upon reflection, she realized that she had been emotionally abused. She did not feel protected by the producers, the host, or even her fellow castmates. She expressed a desire to understand why she got involved in the situation and why she compromised her values, as her behavior in Season 10 was out of character. She felt that there was no room for her to share her side and explain her feelings and motivations.