Living With Bipolar Disorder: Finding Light in the Darkness of Depression

What does it mean to call depression a “terrible gift”?

In this powerful episode of Giving Voice to Depression, poet and artist Kristen Roedl shares her lived experience with bipolar II disorder and recurring severe depression. She speaks candidly about her hospitalizations, suicidal thoughts, and the quiet strength it takes to keep going day after day.

Through poetry, journaling, and creativity, Kristen transforms pain into connection, helping others feel less alone in their struggles. She also reflects on the role of medication, therapy, and the unwavering support of her husband in her healing journey.

Her story reminds us that while depression steals energy, hope, and joy, it can also cultivate empathy, resilience, and art. Kristen’s words are a beacon for anyone who needs to hear: Carry on. You are worthy. Carry on.

To learn more about Kristin and her poetry: KristinRoedell.wikidot.com

Primary Topics Covered:

• Why Kristen calls depression a “terrible gift”
• Living with bipolar II disorder and recurrent depression
• The experience of psychiatric hospitalization and finding community inside
• Learning that depression is time-limited and survivable
• Using poetry and journaling as tools for healing
• Talking back to depression and anxiety with affirmations
• The role of medication, therapy, and partner support
• Accepting depression without shame or self-judgment
• Lessons about rest, self-compassion, and resilience
• Reading of Kristen’s poem “I Swallowed Hope That Winter”

Timestamps

00:11 Introduction and welcome
 01:10 Redefining “gift” during the holiday season
 02:10 Why sharing lived experience is a true gift
 02:57 Introducing Kristen, poet and mental health advocate
 04:13 Kristen explains her process of preparing for this interview
 05:06 Lessons about self-worth beyond productivity
 06:06 Surviving depression and offering a hand to others
 06:50 Managing overwhelm and chronic panic attacks
 07:24 Giving room and grace to depression when it comes
 07:43 Depression’s voice and how Kristen channels it through poetry
 09:05 Recognizing that depression lies and we are not alone
 09:59 Living with bipolar II disorder
10:25 Understanding hypomania vs. depression
11:14 Kristen’s experiences with hospitalization for suicidal thoughts
13:24 Using poetry to move through darkness and connect with others
14:21 Why she calls depression a “terrible gift”
15:22 Talking back to depression with affirmations of worth
16:26 Journaling, painting, and writing as daily coping tools
17:08 Kristen reads her poem “I Swallowed Hope That Winter”
18:30 Reflections on the power of her words
19:45 Takeaways: resting, acceptance, and self-compassion
21:37 Closing thanks and resources

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