Episode 85. Interview with Raina 2. Caution: This episode briefly mentions sexual abuse and suicide. Raina discusses what things were like right before treatment with conversion disorder symptoms, and dissociative episodes. She reviews a history of sexual trauma that led to her first suicide attempt and hospitalization that likely made things worse. She shares that her wish for suicide was not necessarily to die, but to escape her suffering, “I didn’t know how to live [my life].”