While We're Waiting® - Hope After Child Loss 267 | Writhing, Wrestling, and Worshiping (Part One) with Chad and Ronni Fellers
We’re beginning a two-part series today with Chad and Ronni Fellers, who invite us into their story and help us understand what it means to grieve with both faith and honesty.
In today’s episode, Chad and Ronni share about their son Paxton, a young man his dad describes as “all gas, no brakes”—his adoption story, his bold and fearless personality, and the morning that marked the beginning of a life-altering journey.
They talk about the six weeks spent in the hospital, the thousands of people who prayed, and the moment they realized God’s healing would look different than they had hoped. Through it all, they speak openly about writhing in pain, wrestling with God, and slowly learning how to worship in the midst of deep grief.
In this episode, we discuss:
- Paxton’s adoption and early years
- His vibrant, fearless personality
- The morning everything changed
- Their six-week stay in the ICU
- The role of faith during trauma
- Honest wrestling with God in grief
- Why lament is a faithful response to suffering
- The recalibration of life after child loss
This episode is not about resolution—it’s about invitation: to lament, to question, and to trust that even in the ache, we are not alone.
Click HERE to watch the Fellers' video testimony produced by Fellowship Bible Church.
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