Wild Geese 5. You Are What You Want: Untangling Compulsory Heterosexuality and Finding New Hobbies with Madeline Qi
May 9, 2024
Madeline Qi, host of Over & Out and a vibrant presence on TikTok and YouTube, shares her journey from a long-term heterosexual relationship to embracing her queer identity. She discusses the struggle against societal expectations and the importance of authenticity in self-discovery. Madeline opens up about her healing from an eating disorder and the impact of community in navigating these challenges. Listeners will resonate with her insights on claiming desires, building connections in NYC, and the role of art in shaping identities.
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Choosing to Explore Sexuality
- Madeline Qi intentionally chose to live as a lesbian before fully understanding her sexuality.
- She broke up with her boyfriend and started publicly identifying as gay online as part of exploring her identity.
Desire as Authentic Identity
- Desires reveal our true selves and can guide our life purpose.
- Madeline reframed jealousy as a signal of who she was meant to be, leading her to live authentically as queer.
Eating Disorder and Desire Denial
- Madeline's eating disorder involved denying desires, which felt like a power but was sad.
- Recovery intertwined with embracing pleasure and queerness, allowing her to release suppression and live fully.