Lil Xan Opens Up on Grief, Addiction, and Mental Health | With Durag Dev (RIP) (#56)

Hip hop artist Lil Xan (Diego) gets raw and honest in this episode of DEAD Talks, opening up about grief, addiction, and the death of his close friend Citgo to suicide. He reflects on how loss shaped his struggles with drugs, his path to sobriety, and the lessons he’s learned watching fellow artists like Lil Peep, XXXTentacion, and Juice WRLD die too soon.

Lil Xan is joined by Durag Dev, designer and creator of LVXWA, who vulnerably shares his own experiences with grief and loss. Tragically, Durag Dev himself passed away in September 2025, making this conversation even more impactful as one of the last recordings capturing his perspective and spirit.

This episode shows a side of Lil Xan that fans rarely see — thoughtful, self-aware, and deeply reflective about life, death, and the importance of checking in on each other. It’s also a tribute to Durag Dev, honoring his creativity, his story, and his voice in the grief and mental health conversation.

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  DEAD Talks with David Ferrugio approaches death differently. Each guest shares raw stories of grief, loss, or unique perspectives that challenge the “don’t talk about death” taboo. Grief doesn’t end—it evolves. After losing his father on September 11th at just 12 years old, David discovered the power of conversation. Through laughter, tears, and honest dialogue, DEAD Talks helps make it a little easier to talk about death, mourning, trauma, and the life that continues beyond it.

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