"How many chances to plunge into the fog of war do you think you have left?" "I was a pug and bandate. Ok, i'm going to rip that off and try the next thing." 'There's a penist somewhere inside me. I just have to find it,' he says. "'It feels like what else, shill, i have to lose at the moment? That's about it' He adds: 'i'd rather overcome this than ignore it.'