I Love Them, but I Can't Bring Myself to Do It, Right?

"i'm doing my best to keep my world alive, and i would smash your head in with a hammer if it would accomplish that," Amaryllas tells Juniper. "I do like how she is the kind of person who can bring herself to punch a young crying girl", he adds. The author also ponders whether or not there will ever be an ending where amaryllas has to kill her love for the greater good.