You lost your 15 year old son to a terrible accident and what you did instead of I guess what many people would do which is close in and hide away from the world you did this extraordinary thing of opening yourself up to the world after that time. You started having these in conversation events and sort of talking to fansWhat has that process done to you? Do you think it's certainly changed the the sort of regard that I that well the when my son died I just got a lot of letters coming into my house that were not just commiserating with me but were saying look this has happened to me.