made a lot of progress I mean in terms of declarations in terms of weeding out the lies in your life but I think you you raised really important point Craig I think particularly at this stage you're kind of like well how quite arrived but it's their elements of it that's still a daily battle right no no you find worse

no it's like it's kind of like in your spiritual maturation process you you kind of get the big things handled early on like I'm no longer you know flipping people off and I'm not getting drunk every Friday night and then when you get to the things that are less visible that's when it gets hard right when you're dealing with pride and you're dealing with envy you know or you're dealing with private lust issues or whatever that no one else sees that's when it gets more difficult and I would say it's true with our confidence that okay so now we can get up and we can lead a meeting and you know we're confident enough to do that or we can do a presentation or you know I can actually have a difficult conversation with someone you get through those things and then the better you get at some of those things the more aware you become of all the other things that you need to deal with I mean little they seem like little things but they're big things I tend to speak over people I get rushed too excited that seems like a little thing it's incredibly rude and dishonoring it's incredibly rude and dishonoring so that's one of the things that I as small as that may sound like you know you can you can cheer on 10,000 people but if you can if you speak over one person and devalue them that's not good leadership and so that's one of the things I'm working on listening more than I talk with the people around me is because I tend to think the leader in the room needs to talk and actually the leader in the room needs to listen to a lot of little things like that I'm always working on and then even personally it's I I've been battling with shingles well what does shingles result of okay that's the result of stress and so in my mind whenever I feel something stressful coming I go through kind of a mental routine almost like almost like meditation where I'm focused I have this something it's I could share but I want to bore people but it is to calm me to try to get control of

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