I went probably about thirty something thousand dollars in debt over probably about four years, which was a lot of debt when you never have had you know $3,000 in a bank account so for all those years are you paycheck to paycheck? Yeah, just paycheck to paycheck Maybe you have eight hundred bucks in your bank account Maybe you got a thousand maybe did a good show and you maybe got fourteen hundred but then you got a buy a new freaking whatever In the next flight is it the biggest okay was that next flight? So this is a struggle It's a struggle and it started it is a struggle honestly. I'm not other people have way bigger struggles But it's but that's the struggle