I grew up admiring Peter Tossen, Shaegevara and most institutions were things that ought to be torn down as far as I was concerned. So even when I went to Asendo, which is a pretty radical kind of institution in the West, at least in those days, even then I didn't really think of it as a home. You know, I thought of somehow something intrinsically threatening about any institution almost. But gradually, gradually, I just got softened by sitting with people. And I started to just sort of fall in love with not exactly literally, but you know, kind of feel like I was falling in love with the room, with the people in the