What's the Need for a Better System?

i always felt the need for a better system, and i always blamed myself o not being rigorous. I spend a lot of time searching for qlothes i vaguely have in mind, and i know they would be fitting, but can't remember where i wrot them down. And that certainly because i am, was very unstructured in my studies,. So i was very curious about the neighboring disciplines, and went to lectures far off the am beaten track of my discipline. It started with an interest in his work, not in his writing technique.