I Don't Want to Get Closer to God

i remember being a pure form of torture when i missed something that my close friends did. And looking back on it, i laugh, because i think through my thought process and real time. My intentions were so not pure. But you know, it's worse feeling left out. People joke about phomo and adult life, but phomo in middle school is so intense and strong  and like, o cause you are literally left out. I guarantee 75 % of you know how to sign the words,. people dying because of michael jackson's heal the world in some weird elementary school like recital you had to do. Ah yes, i don't know if i wasn't exactly