You've just been so focused on your own self that you've lost sight of what the purpose of leadership is and it's not about you. In exact contrast to John chapter 10 where the Savior says, I know my sheep,. I love my sheep, I lay down my life for my sheep. Yeah. He says, you eat the fat, you clothe with the wool. So you're taking all the perks of your leadership, but you're not helping the diseased. You're not strengthening any of them that are sick. You kill them that are fed. That's pretty bold. And so you've not healed. The higher laying runs away, but I'm the good shepherd