"I would say really horrible things about myself, which I dare not say now," Ruby says. "My brain is 1000% filled with like absolute copium juice where the next part of my brain goes, but you did you mean that?" Smurky's thoughts are on overdrive this week due to all the craziness at Twitch and other social media sites. 'This time around, I was like, I've had enough of this just through my phone'