The Disassociative Experience of Mindfulness

There's a very clear sense that this is not a hallucination or fantasy it's the nature of reality that's always there but I'm forgetting it. If through mindfulness practice will possibly mean self-inquiry insight meditation you have insight into the nature ofreality and so as the mind begins to calm down and the heart begins to open then we have some sense of being able to deal with discontinuity which really isn't even discontinuous. The human reality is so fucking painful and the encounter or their real realization or recognition of this other nature that seems more real than the human realm doesn't seem to do much for my own like karmic baggage.