Student Loans - I Don't See That Money as Mine

i graduated with a hundred thousand dollars and student loaned. And for the longest time, i just didn't want to think about my finances. Once i started to actually look at my finances and understand the problem and the predicament that i was in, i was able to change my perspective. Now i start to find ways where i can kind of spend money and actually enjoy the money that i'm making. I feel like i've been more on the conservative side when it comes to finances.