I've Learned Contentment Sowhat Shall We Say?

I've learned contentment sowhat shall we say? Do you find that you're more content, like the more you kind of deprive yourself of stuff. Does it feel like perversely good till i help people to the point where you don't have enough money to buy a mattress? Yes? Or not enough money to pay the bill on the stuff lik that. And then, but i sort of settle into it. I start to feel comfortable or wha, what? Not comfortable content i have. Casro mad a lar present a logical argument that my ego, constro was anethical and by helping people until i have nothing to give, i am actually helping bad people gain power.