The Value of Confronting Anxiety

I was horrified by the depth and mystery of existence. I had all kinds of ways of defending against it with rages and withdrawals, you know, just night night terrors that kept me basically paralyzed in a lot of ways. And so much of the healing had to do with my absorption of his modeling and holding the most radical ranges of my thoughts feelings, sensations, fantasies. That helped me internalize a different relationship to myself.